| 1959-09-08 [exact/certain/final] |
The Birth of the Babe |
Now I know. Night after night the whole experience unfolded to me. I would turn back to the Bible the next day and find things I had never seen before. I have taught the Bible for 25 years, yet now the whole thing is greater, yet it does not deny what I told you, that God and man are one, and all Imagination. God is actually seated here as you are seated here. There is only God. |
529124 |
| 1959-09-11 [exact/certain/final] |
The Second Vision |
I told you of the experience that took place on July 21st in San Francisco, and that parallels the first vision in the books of Matthew and Luke. I actually gave birth to this Christ Child as it was enacted in me. I was its father. My reality is invisible, for I held in my hands what I formed as my own son, but I did not need a body. So when God conceives of Himself, He conceives of man. So you are God, conceiving Christ Jesus and forming out of your own being unaided by any other person in the world the only-begotten Son of God. |
529140 |
| 1959-09-11 [exact/certain/final] |
The Second Vision |
I must tell you these things, no matter if you believe them or not. The birth of that child was mine, and I know who I am and who he is. This is a child born of a virgin. It is not a physical virgin. It comes out of the mind of man, and that is the womb of God. |
529158 |
| 1959-11-13 [exact/certain/final] |
Esau and Jacob |
The greatest visions in the world are in the Bible. Let this one or that one justify their little comments on the words “Faith” or “Fortune.” The act of faith is the power of God working in man to justify the way of man in need. So, I sit down in my chair and I see before me what is not physically before me, and then I am turned around. This outer garment - Neville - was put through all the paces from seven to twenty-one, and then came this fulfillment of July 21st of this year (the birth of the Babe out of my own being) and I saw the complete separation of that little one called Jesus Christ… |
529338 |
| 1959-07-20 [after/probable/bound] |
God's Seven Eyes |
And let me share with you an experience of mine, and you can do with it as you will — come to your own conclusion concerning this power. It was the 20th of July, 1959. My return to Zion was preceded by a dream. And the dream, I have just told you, in that eighth chapter of Zechariah, for the restoration of the temple. The temple has been fragmented; it’s been scattered. Now it’s been reassembled into a living temple, as we are told in Scripture: “You are the temple of the living God, and the Spirit of God dwells in you.” So this fragmented body is being gathered together, one by one, but this… |
556071 |
| 1959-07-20 [after/probable/bound] |
God's Seven Eyes |
Now, the Lord has come back to Zion. Zion is your skull. Jerusalem is where he dwells. The word Zion, the word Bethlehem, the word Jerusalem, the word City of David are all equated in Scripture. So now the Lord has returned and come back to Zion. Could that arrestment of that chord be the thing that woke me? I ask you to dwell upon it. I only know I saw what I saw. I only know that I arrested it within me, and that sustained motion within me, or nothing else moved. Everything froze because I within myself froze it. Was that the chord? Was that the tone that woke me from the deep sleep, when I… |
556073 |
| 1959-12-06 [after/possible/bound] |
The Word of God |
So he has told us in the parable of the son who went into the vineyard, and they killed him, thinking, by killing him, we will now get the vineyard. And then came the father, and came the Lord himself: what would he do to those servants who killed his son, his only son? Well, that is the wonderful story: that son is David, and David, you’re told in Scripture, died, and his sepulchre is with us unto this day. And the father comes to resurrect his son, but the father resurrects first — he has to raise up himself — then he raises up his son, and his son comes a hundred and thirty-nine days after… |
556161 |
| 1960 [circa/certain/final] |
The Secret of Imagining and a Mystical Experience |
This revelation in the Gospel of John is true. Here is my experience of this birth from above. Like Paul I did not receive it from man, nor was I taught it, but it came through the actual mystical experience of being born from above. None can speak truly of this mystical birth from above but the one who has experienced it. I had no idea that this birth from above was literally true. For who before the experience could believe that the child—the Wonderful Counselor, the Mighty God, the Everlasting Father, the Prince of Peace—was inwoven in his own skull? Who, before the experience, would… |
552939 |
| 1960 [circa/certain/final] |
The Secret of Imagining and a Mystical Experience |
Looking back to the bed, I discovered that my body was gone but in its place sat my three oldest brothers. My oldest brother sat where the head was. My second and third brothers sat where the feet were. None seemed to be aware of me, although I was aware of them and could discern their thoughts. I suddenly became aware of the reality of my own invisibility. I noticed that they, too, were disturbed by the vibration coming from the corner of the room. My third brother was the most disturbed and went over to investigate the cause of the disturbance. His attention was attracted by something on… |
552942 |
| 1962 [circa/certain/final] |
Unless I Go Away |
On the 20th of July, three years ago, in this very city, I had the experience of being born from above, and yet several years prior to that experience, in New York City, I had the experience of having the sea stand still, because I arrested in my head an activity which animated it, and when I released that activity, the things moved on. Whether it’s beast or fowl, when I stopped them — please imagine calling “stop!” and then look up after I release it — the waters, and the dinosaurs — I stopped them, they couldn’t move, and everything was done not “there,” but done in me. |
555888 |
| 1962 [circa/certain/final] |
Unless I Go Away |
So the Father is telling us the whole story before we set sail into this world of experience — the whole drama was done, the whole thing was foreseen — all was foreseen, not that I could foresee it, but I learned how the wind would sound after these things should be, and so I can feel compassionate for any being in this world, because I didn’t know it, until after these things should be. When it happened to me, I went back and read scripture, and the whole thing was there, but I didn’t see it — I didn’t know it, until the infant was put in my hand, and told to me by one of the wise men who… |
555919 |
| 1963-02-05 [exact/certain/final] |
The Bible: Your Spiritual Biography |
The resurrection is to be; it takes place individually. And may I tell you from experience: it is true. God’s mightiest act is the resurrection, and each individual will be resurrected, and the day that you are, you will be the most startled being in the world, because until that moment you had no idea that you were dead; you had no idea that you were entombed. It seemed so natural to walk this earth and play the part that you are playing and think you are alive. You move from the cradle to the grave thinking you are alive, and in this moment in time you are suddenly resurrected. At the… |
542630 |
| 1963-02-08 [exact/certain/final] |
God's Promise to Man |
One night I went to sleep quite normally in the city of San Francisco, and in the wee hours of the morning a most intense vibration was taking place in my head and I begin to awake. Instead of awakening on the bed in my hotel room, I am awakening in my skull to find my skull not a room – my skull is a sepulcher, a tomb, and I am fully awake in my skull – alone. For the first time in eternity I really was awake. There was one moment of panic, and after that moment of panic I began to feel around, and I felt the base of my skull and I pushed and something gave, and out I came, head first, just… |
551591 |
| 1963-02-08 [exact/certain/final] |
God's Promise to Man |
All the others preceded it. It started in 1959, on the 20th day of July, in San Francisco. Then came the revelation of David in the month of December 6, 1959; then came the splitting of the temple (which is the body) on April 8, 1960. Then came that interval of a few years until the first of this year, January 1st, where the dove descended. Knowing my scripture, I knew then that his work really began. That power laden-work started at the descent of the dove, which symbolized the Holy Spirit. |
551612 |
| 1963-02-22 [exact/certain/final] |
Paul's Autobiography |
If there is any man in the Bible that is a man as I am, it is Paul. If there is any man that walked this earth as you and I walked it, it is Paul. It’s the story. The others are states of consciousness. There is one person in whom it began to awaken, and he was grounded in orthodoxy. As he claimed in his own confession: “I am of the tribe of Benjamin, child of Abraham, grounded in the law – and then he didn’t understand the fulfillment of that law until it happened in him. He denied he ever heard it from a man, for no man could have taught it to him: “The Gospel that I preach is not the… |
551703 |
| 1963-03-15 [exact/certain/final] |
Christ Unveiled |
That taught me a lesson in my mature years. Not when I did it to him as a child but in my mature years, when I was awakened to find that I had been asleep all through the ages, and I didn’t know it. All through the ages I had been sleeping, and how long are these ages? |
529796 |
| 1963-03-15 [exact/certain/final] |
Christ Unveiled |
Well, here, I didn’t understand it any more than the world understood it, and one day it happened. God in his infinite mercy looked upon me and found me ripe at that moment, and he awoke me. As he awoke me, I awoke for the first time in eternity, and I was sealed in a tomb, and the tomb was my skull. I was completely sealed in a tomb, and the tomb was my skull. And then God rolled away the stone, and I came out. |
529798 |
| 1963-03-19 [exact/certain/final] |
In These Last Days by His Son |
But there will come a moment in time that God will hit you and hit you so hard that you will jump back in time to the one thing that begins the whole vast unfolding of God’s wonderful play. For when I was struck, may I tell you, it’s an experience that no one can describe in words adequately. When you are struck from above, it’s a peculiar sensation—that you think you are going to die. This is it, there’s no possibility of coming out of this. But at that moment when you are struck, you are struck so hard that you are turned around, and you go back in time to an experience that took place—if… |
529850 |
| 1963-03-19 [exact/certain/final] |
In These Last Days by His Son |
So here, our scientists in this generation, in our generation, they have found this peculiar particle. Well, I am not a scientist, but I have found that I can use it in a way that maybe they will not admit, and you can use it. I was struck, and I jumped back in time 2,000 years in the twinkle of an eye after an enormous blow in my head delivered by God to have the experience as described in the Book of Luke. And then five months later, another blow, terrific blow, and I jumped back another thousand years in time, not in space; and then, four months later, another thousand years, where the… |
529866 |
| 1963-04-05 [exact/certain/final] |
Barabbas or Jesus |
You think about it. Meditate upon that thought. It is true. The whole thing comes out of Israel. It is a mystery, the most fantastic mystery in the world. So, I am proud to say I am a Jew because I am a Christian. I have been born from above. I could not possibly be, unless I were a Jew. I know, when the veil is lifted and the whole thing is revealed - well, it is fantasy beyond the wildest dream! |
530095 |
| 1963-04-09 [exact/certain/final] |
The Crucifixion |
Now listen to this carefully. It has been given to me and you; take it for what it’s worth. The promise of this begins in Genesis, the promise of an infant called Isaac. The whole vast world has the strangest concept of Isaac. The Lord begot Isaac. Isaac is to be [...] not as the result of generation but the shaping of the unbegotten. Here is God, the unbegotten, shaping himself upon us; and when he completes that shape and it’s perfect in his eye, then we are born from above. So Isaac is the shaping of the unbegotten. For God is not begotten. He is begetting himself on man, individual man.… |
548495 |
| 1963-04-09 [exact/certain/final] |
The Crucifixion |
But I do know that when it pleased him, that which he begot in me, and then it took nine months for the entire series of mystical experiences, as described in scripture, to completely unfold within me. And so I can tell you it’s going to happen to you. And so there’s no time; it took nine months from the moment of the birth, but when that birth takes place, it’s all in God’s keeping. You and I are put through the furnaces of affliction. Let no one tell you that you’re not going to. “As I have planned it, so shall it be, and as I have purposed it, so shall it stand.” And no one will thwart it,… |
548496 |
| 1963-04-12 [exact/certain/final] |
The Resurrection |
And one day, God’s mightiest act, the power of resurrection held him and awoke. And may I tell you, when that power is applied to you, that night that you are sound asleep and it’s applied, you think you are going to die. And then you are going to be awakened. But at that moment when it’s applied to you, it’s so intense you feel you can’t stand it; it means this is the end. You explode. But you don’t explode; you’re awakened. And suddenly you awake. You have no doubts where you are. You are all together but in your skull. The skull is a tomb, and you know it’s a tomb. You’re sealed,… |
530153 |
| 1963-04-30 [exact/certain/final] |
The Kingdom |
May I tell you, all the precepts of Jesus are to be taken literally. People say, ”Oh no, it couldn’t be literal.” I tell you every precept is stated as some literal fact to be understood in its literal manner. And I’m speaking from experience. I had no idea that this thing was so literally true. So we are told, except you be born from above, Nicodemus, you cannot inherit the kingdom of heaven. You can’t get in. And he said, “Well, how could this be possible? I am fifty years old, a man my age? And how could I be born a second time?” He said, “Except ye be born from above, you cannot enter the… |
547577 |
| 1963-05-05 [exact/probable/preferred] |
I AM the Vine |
Well, Mary is the Anglicized form of Maria. Maria is really the great sea, the great water. It can take any form. Water can take any form that you give it. We are told in the 2nd chapter of Luke, “Fear not; for I bring you glad tidings of great a joy to all the people; for unto you is born this day in the city of David a Savior, who is Christ the Lord.” The city of David is Zion; Zion is your skull; that’s where he is born. “Now this will be a sign unto you; you will find a babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, lying on the floor” . And they go and they find exactly what the messenger of the… |
548578 |
| 1963-05-17 [exact/certain/final] |
The Cross |
And so we’re told by Blake, “The gods of the earth and the sea sought through nature to find this tree; but their search was all in vain: there grows one in the human brain.” So here, on my brain, he is nailed and the extension is right on this body. But as far as I’m concerned it was no pain. It was ecstatic delight, supreme delight, when he made me alive. And then, he cleaved to me, remained faithful to his love, and then he awoke me. Today I can say with Paul, “I now bear on my body the marks of Jesus.” The birth from above, the memory of it is so vivid; the resurrection from the grave is… |
530388 |
| 1963-05-17 [exact/certain/final] |
The Cross |
The question is, I speak so often of the fullness of time—this is taken from the Book of Galatians, the 4th chapter: “When the fullness of time had come, God sent forth his Son, born of woman, born under the law, to redeem those who were born under the law.” Everything has its own appointed hour, all pregnancies in the world. At what moment in time after the nailing of the cross within you he impregnated you with himself to beget you in his own likeness, I do not know at what moment in time. But at that fullness of time no one can stop it. What is that fullness of time? No one could be… |
530401 |
| 1963-05-31 [exact/certain/final] |
On the Book of Revelation |
Well, that comes from the 12th chapter of Revelation. [...] there’s a woman in labor giving birth to a child and then this dragon, the red dragon appears to devour the child, but as she brought forth the child it was caught up into the presence of God. But remember, the birth took place in heaven; it just simply moved into the presence of God. And so the dragon is always in the world ready to oppose any progress of the individual who is God. He’s always present. And if I go back to my own personal experience, when the child is presented and I held him, suddenly it was all vanished, all gone.… |
530488 |
| 1963-11-26 [exact/certain/preferred] |
Advent: The Four Tears |
Well then, who is Jesus Christ from the dead? It never occurred to me, raised as I was in the Christian faith, that when it happened to me it was the resurrection of Jesus Christ, for the simple fact I was resurrected. I was awakened in a tomb and the tomb was my skull. Well, if I find myself in a tomb I must have been dead or someone thought me dead and placed me there. And was I placed there six thousand years ago? Is this some strange peculiar recurrence? Is this a mystery where a man at the end of a few score years here, and the body decays, and yet he doesn’t? Is he placed in a peculiar… |
555675 |
| 1963-11-26 [exact/certain/preferred] |
Advent: The Four Tears |
And the first act in the great Advent is to awaken. I awoke one night four years ago; I awoke in a sepulcher to discover the sepulcher was my own wonderful skull. It never occurred to me that I was really dead prior to that moment, that I had slept prior to that moment, save the nocturnal event night after night. But to find that I had been asleep for 6,000 years and then I awoke, and here I am completely awake in a tomb and the tomb is my skull! That’s the beginning of Advent. |
555679 |
| 1963-11-26 [exact/certain/preferred] |
Advent: The Four Tears |
And so, Advent is the unveiling of Christ in man. That’s what it really is. You take the curtain apart and you unveil Christ in man. And you do it in four great tears in the flesh. The first is in the skull. And you can take it in this way: when you awake in your skull and then you come out of your skull, which is called the birth from above, it’s really one. It takes place in one night. The second one is an explosion, a fantastic explosion, and then it comes where you know who you are. That second event reveals who you really are. And it takes the Son to reveal the Father, and the Son… |
555684 |
| 1963-12-08 [exact/certain/final] |
What Is Truth |
[...] tell no man. Well, that’s not actual, because on other occasions, “I will tell you, before it takes place.” In the 13th chapter of the Book of John, “I will tell, before it takes place, so that when it does take place you may believe” . But for those who have not the courage to face the heat when—friends will always say and point their finger at you because you confided in them and told them of your hopes and your dreams and your wishes, and so you told them—but you didn’t have the strength, the faith, to persist in the assumption that you are what you told them that you are. And then… |
530648 |
| 1963-12-13 [exact/certain/final] |
Where Are You From |
Well, who would accept that! The conventional view completely denies it, it couldn’t possibly be. He is telling me that I have a memory of my youth. I can’t quite remember the moment of my physical birth. I vividly remember the moment of my spiritual birth. But he is telling me it has been - that I do know. And everyone here - without memory of that physical birth - they can’t deny by observation of other people being born, that they, too, must have been born in a similar manner; so they say it has been. Now he tells me: that which has been done (which is my birth) is that which will be done.… |
544750 |
| 1963-12-19 [exact/probable/final] |
Christmas, the Redeeming Message |
So I awoke—and you can take it down and this is true—I awoke to find myself in the sepulcher of my skull. I did not know until that moment that I had been, throughout the centuries, dead—for you wouldn’t put anyone in a sepulcher unless he’s dead. And so, I have been buried, buried in my skull, but I didn’t know it until that moment in time. Then the most fantastic power stirred me: I was resurrected from the dead. Resurrection is God’s most wonderful creative act. He awakens himself from this profound sleep that is so deep it is just like death. So I awoke from the grave, and then I came out. |
545027 |
| 1963-12-19 [exact/probable/final] |
Christmas, the Redeeming Message |
You see them and you know them. They know you but they don’t see you, for you are not here anymore. This event takes place in heaven. Although they will be invisible to anyone in this world, you are invisible to them, because this is something entirely different, an entirely new age where you are born. You have broken this life’s invidious bar as it were. You aren’t here anymore. And you’ve been born after being a dreamer for unnumbered centuries, dreaming the horror of this world. Then you awake and three men witness it. Now you’re told, in the story one announces the fact and two question… |
545030 |
| 1963-12-19 [exact/probable/final] |
Christmas, the Redeeming Message |
And then you know who Mary is. Prior to that if you were raised in a Christian faith, you thought Mary was a woman who lived two thousand years ago. And now you know who Mary is, and yet you are male, wearing a male garment. You may be the father of children as I am; I have a son and a daughter. And yet I gave birth to myself, and it was symbolized as that of an actual infant wrapped in swaddling clothes. So then I knew: “I am Mary and birth to God must give if I in blessedness for now and evermore would live.” And so, I brought forth myself. God can only bring forth himself; he can’t bring… |
545031 |
| 1963-12-19 [exact/probable/final] |
Christmas, the Redeeming Message |
Sir, may I tell you, returning here still clothed as I am in a garment of flesh and blood, I cannot fully realize my divine inheritance. It cannot become actual, or not fully realized by me while I’m still wearing this. And while I’m wearing this, it has relationships like wife, children, brothers, sisters and so on, and reactions may not be as intense, but they’re still reactions on this level. Were I completely indifferent, it would be taken off tonight. But while I wear it, this garment that I wear is related to certain patterns in God’s eternal structure and reacts on that level. And so,… |
545057 |
| 1963-01-01 [after/probable/preferred/bound] |
The Marks of Jesus |
And now comes the great unfolding of the wind, the spirit. So much is said in John about the importance of the spirit, the importance of the wind, and you hear it, and you feel it, and you wonder where is this strange, unearthly wind coming from — you know it’s here, you feel it here, but it’s all of them. And then all the symbolism of scripture begins to appear before you, and it happens so automatically and so naturally. Three men take the place where the body was when it disappears — you look at these men, they can’t see you, but you see them, and you hear every thought, and read and… |
556914 |
| 1963-01-01 [after/probable/preferred/bound] |
The Marks of Jesus |
So he rises, and may I tell you, the sensation is one of rising from sleep — the only reason that you know it was so deep, that it was like unto death, is the location. When you find yourself in a tomb — only the dead are placed in tombs — therefore, finding yourself in the tomb of your own skull, and it’s completely sealed. However I got there I don’t remember, but whoever put me there must have thought I was dead, because I didn’t realize that I went into the place, but here I am, I’m in it, and it’s sealed, and I awaken — I’m waking in a tomb. I must now associate my state with death, but… |
556926 |
| 1964-01-09 [exact/certain/final] |
The One Greater Than John |
Oh, I didn’t even know I was asleep. I didn’t know when I was awakened in my skull to find myself completely enclosed within my skull and my skull is a sepulcher. And it’s not a little tiny place like this here, for I only wear a seven-size hat, and I couldn’t get into a seven-size hat. So it’s not this, but it is my skull. And so here, I awake. I find myself waking but unlike the usual waking which comes every morning when I awake. This is something different—I’m waking, and I awake in my skull. My skull is a tomb, it’s a sepulcher. And here I am completely awake now for the first time in… |
528282 |
| 1964-02-11 [exact/certain/final] |
Grace versus Law |
But I don’t conceive myself to be good, as the world calls good. I’ve done unnumbered things of which I would be ashamed, and I still feel I am capable under stress of doing things of which I would be ashamed. And yet I have had the grace of God, the second birth from above. And I can’t conceive of anything more encouraging in the world than to share with others your own experiences and tell them that they cannot lift themselves by their own bootstraps. This is an act of mercy, and mercy is God in expression, for God is love and mercy is love in action. The mightiest act of God is that act… |
546673 |
| 1964-02-13 [exact/probable/preferred] |
The Power of Faith |
To you who may not understand it, when I say I awoke in my skull, don’t think I was a little tiny thing this big, you know. I’m just as big as I am, and my skull, if I drew a straight line here, the skull is equal to the size of this area here. Because I stood up and walked around in my skull. The skull was just as big as this area here. All things being relative, I wasn’t any little, tiny thing this big. I was the man that I am now, feeling myself just as I am now. So I stood up and walked around in the skull, the skull the size of this room. Then I came out. I woke in my own being, for this… |
531328 |
| 1964-02-18 [exact/certain/final] |
The Last Days by a Son |
Many of us in our anxiety and our eagerness to experience it will conjure in the mind’s eye a certain experience of a child. We are eager…and who can blame anyone for being eager to have the experience…and we’ll conjure it. It’s a false birth. For the birth is so unique that it defies description. How are you going to describe it? I tried my best, I tried not to embellish, not to add to or take from, tell it just as it happened to me. As you’re told in those five words in the Book of Luke, “They related their own experience.” Almost the entire Bible could be wrapped in those five words; they… |
543978 |
| 1964-02-27 [exact/certain/final] |
All Are Human |
I don’t say you are going to be with me today. I’m telling you I have experienced it. I have experienced the Promise, complete, fulfilled, and I know my inheritance is the kingdom of heaven. I inherit not only the kingdom, I inherit a presence, and the presence is God. Because he gave me himself through the revelation of his Son, who called me what he calls him. He calls me “Father”; he calls him “Father.” But he can’t call both; we’re one. And so, I know I inherit a presence. I know when the time comes to take it off, automatically he has already changed my lowly body to be of one form with… |
545528 |
| 1964-03-27 [exact/certain/final] |
Life Through Death |
I was the same being then as I am now, no change in identity. Any more than the one who was shot through the head had any change in identity. So that after this event takes place you are still that same being. Now let me share with you what I mean. This happened years ago, many years ago…and then four years ago, back in 1959, this intense vibration at the base of my skull and I began to awake. Now the voice I heard that night “Yes, he is God in the act of waking” and I began to awake. |
546280 |
| 1964-03-27 [exact/certain/final] |
Life Through Death |
Well, morning after morning I have awakened in this world in my fifty-nine years; I am quite conscious of waking every morning and I thought this was a similar waking, for it was waking, no question about it. I began to awake. As I became fully awake and alert in a way I’ve never known before, I am in my skull. Now, today, if you were in church you heard the story: “And when they came to the place of the skull, there they crucified him.” I awoke within my skull. My skull, if I can put it, put it the size of this area of the stage. I am standing in my own skull, but there is no opening, no… |
546281 |
| 1964-03-31 [exact/certain/final] |
The New and Living Way |
Well, when you feel it, it feels so physical. When I was severed in two, it felt like my body physically was severed in two. When I felt that infant, it was something physical in my hand. When I saw the witnesses to the event, they were physical. This is all man, there’s nothing but man in this world. Because why? God is man, and there’s nothing but God. |
531581 |
| 1964-04-03 [exact/doubtful/preferred] |
Christ Is the Reality of Man |
But until you become aware of it, and act on personal experience, you will continue the journey, even though you go through the gate called death. But death does not end your journey — you cannot end it, for the being in you is immortal, it cannot die. That being is your own wonderful human imagination. That is the Divine body of the Lord Jesus Christ. Your own wonderful human imagination is the immortal you, and cannot die, for it has to be born — born here in this world of flesh and blood. You cannot consummate the bliss which is heaven until you actually, in this world below, which is the… |
531613 |
| 1964-04-03 [exact/doubtful/preferred] |
Christ Is the Reality of Man |
And when he comes out, it’s not another, it’s yourself. Who rose? I do. Who was present? No one — I was alone. And who pushed away the stone? It is said the stone was rolled away — I did. Well then, how did you come out — a midwife? No, no midwife came. I got up by myself, I pushed myself out and pulled myself out of that tomb, to find that the tomb was breathing, a womb, because the minute I came out, the symbolism of the birth was surrounding me — the child wrapped in swaddling clothes, and the spirit is the wind, and it was the wind that disturbed — and disturbed the witnesses that came to… |
531629 |
| 1964-04-03 [exact/certain/final] |
His Own Credentials |
So when you return, it’s not a dream. I dream nightly, but visions come at long intervals, especially the visions as recorded in the gospels, beginning with the resurrection, then the birth, then the discovery of the fatherhood of God, then the ascent into the Holy of Holies, and then the descent of the dove. They come at intervals, stated intervals, the first great four: two the first night, one on the heels of the other; and then five months later the second, the discovery of the fatherhood of God; and then four months later, comes the ascent into the Holy of Holies; and then three years… |
545248 |
| 1964-04-03 [exact/certain/final] |
His Own Credentials |
This thing started with me before I found the principle. I found the law; well, the law thrilled me when I got results, marvelous. But when God began to unveil himself within me on that morning of the 20th day of July, 1959, from then on I could think of nothing but. Yes, I had to fix certain things, but it doesn’t really hold my interest very long. I go back and ponder this greatest of all things, best of things, and then try to tell it to as many as will listen that it’s going to happen to everybody. |
545282 |
| 1964-04-24 [exact/certain/final] |
The Friend of Sinners |
As the lady brought out, she saw me in her skull. I am in her skull. Not in eternity can she throw me out, she can’t get rid of me; I am in her skull. Because I awoke a few years ago, I am in the skull of every being in this world, but especially those who hear me. Those who hear me, I am awake in their skull, watching if they are faithful to the law, the law being: Assume the feeling of the wish fulfilled. For, “I came not to destroy the law or the prophets but to fulfill them.” |
531769 |
| 1964-05-12 [exact/certain/final] |
What Is His Name |
Then came that moment in time, to go back to Jeremiah, “Thy words became a joy and a delight to my heart…I am called by thy name, O Lord, God of hosts.” I am actually called by your name? Yes, called by my name. Well, my name is Neville and that is certainly not the Lord, God of hosts. Your name is Robert, your name could be Mary, name could be anything, but that’s not the Lord, God of hosts. So, how could I be called by thy name, which is the Lord, the God of hosts? Suddenly he tells us the name means “Jehovah will rise, Jehovah will loosen the womb.” Well, he did rise in me; and he rose in… |
531841 |
| 1964-05-19 [exact/certain/final] |
Jesus, God's Plan of Salvation |
For in my own case, when I was taken off the wheel of recurrence but left on it to tell the story, for I must tell it until this garment comes off; and when it comes off now it comes off for the last time. I do not find myself—like my friend Larry’s mother who found herself in the year 3,804—I am through with the wheels within wheels within wheels. But I must remain on the present wheel, the year 1964, and tell it until that time when the garment is taken off, and this time for the last time; for I am not going through death any more. But I must tell you, the night it happened to me, that… |
545567 |
| 1964-05-19 [exact/certain/final] |
Jesus, God's Plan of Salvation |
So when you have the experience, go back into the ancient scripture and seek and seek and seek. A great help is the Concordance, Strong’s Concordance, and take Strong’s Concordance, take a word and look it up. Don’t take anything for granted, just look it up and see what it means. Take the word resurrection, for instance, and you think in terms of resurrection as someone resurrected physically. Hasn’t a thing to do with that. The word, as defined in the Bible, in the Concordance, means “to rise up; to stand upright; to awake from sleep.” Read it—-to awake from sleep. Well, I know in my own… |
545581 |
| 1964-05-22 [exact/certain/final] |
God Has a Purpose |
So if I have been crucified with him, alright, I have enjoyed that death. I’m crucified with him, and in that crucifixion I have union with him. Now, certainly, I will also be united with him in a resurrection like his. Well, I can tell you from experience it has happened to me. So I know the joy of the union in my crucifixion with him, and I now experience the joy in my resurrection with him. It’s one. I do not differ from any child that walks the face of this earth. We’re all one. |
539188 |
| 1964-05-26 [exact/certain/final] |
Call the Next Witness |
He called me and everything said in scripture concerning Jesus Christ I have experienced in the soul of my being, beginning with the first one. All the others were preparatory, like finding myself in the divine council where God was holding court, and being welcomed, embraced and then sent, like an apostle. That preceded…all the other things preceded it. My finding myself in that section of the book of the [...], where I’m in this enormous multitude keeping festival, that preceded it. But the real beginning of the awakening began with the resurrection, where suddenly a power that I’ve never… |
531947 |
| 1964-05-26 [exact/certain/final] |
Call the Next Witness |
And this begins the birth of God in man. I come out as one that is being born, and everything said in scripture concerning the birth of Jesus Christ I experienced. So I came out of it. The three men were present to witness it. And then comes the most unearthly wind that man could ever experience. And so we’re told, “All was foretold me, naught could I foresee. But I learned how the wind would sound after these things should be.” I couldn’t envision the wind. I didn’t know. I was told it as you were told it, everyone was told the story of God before we set forth; and so, all was foretold me… |
531948 |
| 1964-11-27 [exact/certain/final] |
Advent |
Then you realize the story as told in scripture as they record it. They’re not recorded according to the position that they occupy in chronological sequence, but they are recorded according to their content. And events that coincide in content are simultaneous. So the resurrection that should come, say, fifty years later or 6,000 years later—for if the journey is 6,000 years, and we have been crucified with him in a death like his and we shall be resurrected with him in a resurrection like his, well, this is a 6,000-year span—they should be so recorded. But they’re not so recorded. Because… |
545114 |
| 1964-11-27 [exact/certain/final] |
Advent |
Behold the man…they are waiting for him. But the whole vast world is waiting for him to come from without. Many of them sell their possessions and go off to some mount waiting for him to come. And you’re told he does not come by watching; he comes suddenly when you least expect it…and that I know from experience. No expectation, no even looking for him, suddenly, a very normal day, a normal night, and suddenly you begin to awake. You think, at the beginning of the awakening, that this is a normal waking, but it doesn’t feel like it, it’s more intense. Your head becomes so intense and then you… |
545124 |
| 1964-11-27 [exact/certain/final] |
Advent |
Well, my dear, I can only give you my own experience. No one in this world of the three billion and a half who walk the face of the earth (and I am one of them), no one ever told it to me, I never suspected it, it just happened. And when it happened, it came so suddenly, so unexpectedly, no one was more startled. I was born and raised in a Christian home, raised in the Christian tradition, and I wasn’t taught it this way. With all of my teaching across this country, I wasn’t taught it this way. I was taught that Jesus Christ was another, some other being, and didn’t realize it’s the universal… |
545147 |
| 1964-12-01 [exact/certain/final] |
You Are My Witnesses |
And the resurrection precedes that little picture of the inn only by moments. You awaken in a tomb and the tomb is your skull. You come out of your skull and find yourself in an inn. The inn, a very simple, very modest inn, and in this, here is the Christ child wrapped, just as you’re told, in swaddling clothes. It’s put into your hands and like Simeon you rejoice because you know now, “Let your servant depart in peace” . You’ve served him faithfully, served yourself faithfully, and now let your servant depart in peace. For I have held in my hands the infant Christ which is a symbol of my own… |
532238 |
| 1964-12-15 [exact/certain/final] |
The True Story of Christmas |
In its place sits—and I’ll tell you because you are few tonight; I didn’t tell it in my little circle, in my little booklet; I told it impersonally, but I will repeat it—-my three brothers were there. I say this to you tonight for a purpose, my three brothers were present. The oldest, called Cecil, was at the head; the second, called Victor, was at the right foot; and the third, called Lawrence, was at the left foot. They heard the same wind that I heard; but they didn’t see me, they couldn’t see me. I could see every thought that they entertained. My vision was so clear that they couldn’t… |
532318 |
| 1964-12-15 [exact/certain/final] |
The True Story of Christmas |
On the other hand, when David appeared in my world and I was David’s father…and not one moment prior to that event did I ever entertain such a thought. Well, three could come into your world and strangely enough they could be your brothers. You can have the same feeling, the same certainty about this relationship that you’ll have to David. For I know these three brothers in my world, Cecil, Victor and Lawrence, I know them. They are still in my world. It was Lawrence (who was a doctor) who got off the bed in search of the wind to find the babe. And the Book of Luke tells you that he was a… |
532337 |
| 1964-12-22 [exact/certain/final] |
He Breaks the Shell |
Man awakens within his skull to discover that he is entombed within it. Intuitively he knows that if he pushes the base of the skull an opening will be made and he will emerge. He pushes the base, finds an opening and comes out the head first in the same manner a child is born. As he contemplates the skull out of which he has just emerged, suddenly there comes a sound like that of a strong driving wind which fills the whole room; he hears the sound of it, but he does not know ‘where it comes from or where it is going.’ His attention is diverted for a moment from the body out of which he has… |
532366 |
| 1965-01-05 [exact/certain/final] |
The Real Man |
Well, may I tell you from my own personal experience, when I awoke within this skull of mine there were no openings. How did I get into it in the first place? Did someone put me there, or was I led there, was I enticed there? |
532397 |
| 1965-01-05 [exact/certain/final] |
The Real Man |
Well, my only experience is this. I had an experience one night several years ago. I was taken into a world where they had not yet entered the shell, and they do not believe it. I told them of my experiences on Earth and they did not believe one word I said. They thought I was lying, because to them Earth is death, it’s a tomb. The whole world called Earth is really a tomb, and they didn’t believe me. I was talking with them and I spoke with Heine the great German philosopher and he told me that they didn’t believe one word I said. Well, I could see from their faces they didn’t believe me.… |
532470 |
| 1965-01-12 [exact/certain/final] |
Twenty-Seven Heavens |
Well, it didn’t come that day, that year, but it came in 1959. So here, in 1959…prior to that I had had the experience of meeting God, embraced by him, but it was almost like something too green to be understood. It didn’t really come into the mind with understanding until July of ’59. Almost thirty years prior to that, yes, I met and stood in the presence of God, infinite love; but you can’t believe that you, this small, little thing, could be that welcome, could be that, I would say, graced. Because you know your limitations, you know your weaknesses, you know all that you are, and you can… |
532488 |
| 1965-01-15 [exact/certain/final] |
The Cabala |
After the whole thing is over you know the sound of that child…the wind…you hear it. So when the little child is found wrapped in swaddling clothes, and they hear the wind, they don’t suspect that the wind that they hear is the voice of God calling one from the grave. So he called me from the grave. I was buried in the sepulcher of my skull, and the wind came; he breathed upon me. And what a wind! All was foretold me, but while I’m playing the part I’m so lost in the part I cannot foresee it. Yet it was foretold me. |
546440 |
| 1965-02-02 [exact/certain/final] |
The Smile |
Now, I tell you, you are bearing the Son of God, and when he comes forward and you hold him in your own hands, he will smile. It’s the most heavenly smile! And you will know you hold in your hands Christ Jesus…he’s always a child. But then, if you are holding in your own hands and you gave birth to him then you must be Mary, for this story is given to Mary. I never thought I was Mary. But here, if I gave birth to Christ Jesus and held him in my own hands and he smiles, and I saw this heavenly smile that freed me now forever from all the miseries through which I have passed, well then, I must… |
550895 |
| 1965-02-02 [exact/certain/final] |
The Smile |
I can’t understand it. When did it happen? And so I wonder and I ask questions, how is it possible? I do not know a man and I have no husband. I don’t understand how this thing works. And I wait…if really this is my child, well, show me his father. And I don’t know…I can’t find the father until a further expansion. And then, five months later another terrific expansion and here I am looking at what was always there. Just as I said earlier, as fame begets envy, this expansion begets my son David—and, “Thou art my son”—who reveals me as a father. And I didn’t know the father of that Christ… |
550914 |
| 1965-02-02 [exact/certain/final] |
The Smile |
I said that there are…you can consider a birth from two angles. One from the father in which the verb is “to beget” and John uses it in all the gospel of John and the epistles of John. In the 13th verse of the 1st chapter of John—-“born not of blood nor of the will of man nor the will of the flesh, but of God”—-that verb is “to beget.” In the 3rd chapter when he speaks with Nicodemus and “that you must be born from above” that is “to beget.” That is not as the present state would be. So that you can take it from the father’s side, which is always “to beget,” or from the mother’s side in which… |
550936 |
| 1965-02-05 [exact/certain/final] |
The Sower |
No, don’t…the wind, as far as I’m concerned—I can only give you my own personal experience, and all I seek to do here is to share with everyone what I have experienced—-and it begins with the wind. I call that a double act: You awaken and then the child. Then the second state is a single act and it’s an actual explosion. I felt my head exploding, my whole head exploded, and here stood before me David. He was always there waiting for my expansion. I could never see him that he may reveal to me God the Father unless I had expanded to the point where he would appear; because he is within all of… |
546057 |
| 1965-02-09 [exact/certain/final] |
Creation |
Yes. But I do not know how long. After all, some take…in this world of ours we have different intervals. I only know in my own case it happened in ’29 and the child came forward in ’59, so that was thirty years. Then it was an additional three years, approximately three and a half to the completed picture. And so it fulfilled scripture. So what does it matter, because without this we are simply parts of the structure of the universe moved hither and yon. But God in his infinite mercy falls in love with the prepared souls, and the prepared soul of man is the womb of God. So, some of our… |
549643 |
| 1965-02-23 [exact/probable/final] |
The Dreamer |
I was coming home from a funeral about a year ago and a lady said to me (who drove the car)…first of all she said, “You know our friends in the back”—-and it’s a lovely, sweet Japanese couple—-and she said to me, “They are Catholics.” Well, I was pleasantly surprised, because automatically you think of Japanese as Buddhist…at least I did. She said, “They are Catholics.” Then said she to me, “I’m a Christian Scientist” and I said, “That’s alright.” Then she said to me, “What are you?” I said, “I’m a Christian.” She said, “I took that for granted, but I mean what kind of Christian? Are you a… |
548124 |
| 1965-03-09 [exact/certain/final] |
It Is Within |
Blake uses the word “bosom” as you would Imagination; they’re interchangeable. Then we’re told, “In your bosoms I exist, I reside”—-then he tells us, “Ever expanding in the bosom of God, the human Imagination.” The bosom of God is simply Divine Imagination—there’s no limit to expansion—and you and I with our human Imaginations, one substance with divine imagining, we are expanding forever with divine imagining. No limit whatsoever to translucency, to expansion. We reached the limit of contraction when we became man here. Then comes that turn around where the tree turns up and we hold the… |
546197 |
| 1965-03-23 [exact/certain/final] |
God Is in Christ, Reconciling |
So when Paul uses this 110th Psalm in his letter to the Ephesians, he speaks of God: “Which God accomplished in Christ, by his resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and now sits at the right hand in heavenly places.” But who did it?—-God—“that which God accomplished in Christ.” Well, Christ is your own Imagination…so God accomplished it in you. What did he accomplish in me? Everything recorded in scripture concerning Jesus Christ he accomplished in my Imagination. When I least expected it he came like a thief in the night and awoke me from a long, long slumber, which, undoubtedly, was a… |
547315 |
| 1965-03-26 [exact/probable/final] |
Have You Found Him |
This is actually the creative power that is here now, nailed to me in this whirling vortex, these six points like the Mogen David, the six-pointed star. The day will come—and it has come in my case—that he simply awoke within my skull. He stood up. Who stood up?—-I stood up. And everything said of him I experienced. So these signs all began to unfold from that moment on. Every sign as recorded in scripture concerning from his resurrection through to the descent and the sealing of the Holy Spirit…as “he was sealed with the promised Holy Spirit as the guarantee of his inheritance.” What was his… |
545080 |
| 1965-04-06 [exact/certain/final] |
Spiritual States |
I can’t tell anyone the shock to live for fifty…well, that happened in ’59…so fifty-four; I was born in 1905, so fifty-four—to be here for fifty-four years believing that every morning I was awake. And at night when I went to bed to sleep, I slept, had dreams, next day I woke, went about my normal duties, and that night I slept again—-and to find out after fifty-four years that I had been asleep all the time and didn’t know it? One night to find that this intense vibration, this electrical charge beyond the wildest dream, is placed upon me, as though someone took a wand, a magic wand and… |
543821 |
| 1965-04-06 [exact/certain/final] |
Spiritual States |
I find four great steps. The resurrection and birth from above come together; resurrection precedes the birth by a matter of moments. Then, five months later comes the Son revealing you as the Father. Four months after that comes the splitting of the temple of the body from top to the base, and you are parted as though you were parted this way, many, many inches. And then you look at the base of the spine and you see this golden molten pool of liquid gold. You know it is yourself, and as you know it is yourself you fuse with it. In that liquid form, like a serpent, you ascend what was the… |
543859 |
| 1965-04-16 [exact/certain/final] |
Inner Talking |
So before I became awake, long before I rose from the dead to find myself resurrected, then to find myself born from above, long before that I was still the same being who afterwards woke. When I woke, I was not other than the being who was asleep. When I was born from above, I was not other than the being who was not born from above. When I ascended as the serpent in the wilderness, I was not other than the one who had not yet ascended. When the dove descended and smothered me in affection, I was not then other than the one who had not yet been smothered with affection. So these words are… |
532893 |
| 1965-04-16 [exact/certain/final] |
Inner Talking |
Son of man? The skull? Well, I can only give you my own experience. I had all the sensations of my physical skull, but undoubtedly it was not. So this physical skull is only a shadow of the true skull. Because everything I experienced seemed so physical. When I was split in two it could not have been this body because this body carries no scar, physical scar from the top of my skull to the base of my spine. Yet I saw what I thought to be this body, and it was split in two and severed so that I could see about six inches parting the two sides. Yet this body carries no mark, and I did see a… |
532908 |
| 1965-04-27 [exact/certain/final] |
Creative Moments |
If these same scholars who wrote this would accept my experience, they would have no problem. For I have had the experience of the two children. But man seeing the Bible as some secular history will never see them, because Isaiah, if you take it chronologically, was supposed to have lived in the 6th Century B.C. If you take David, he is supposed to have lived 1,000 years B.C. Well, certainly David could not be one of his children when he came 400 years later. The word Isaiah means “Jehovah is salvation,” the same word that you find, the same meaning of the word Jesus or the word Joshua, same… |
544423 |
| 1965-04-30 [exact/certain/final] |
My Husband |
Then I tell you “I have been crucified with Christ”…and in his letter to the Colossians, “You have died and your life is hid with Christ, and when Christ appears you appear with him in glory.” Now Peter tells us in the 1 st epistle, “We are reborn through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead” . There is no other way for man to be born from above, born of God, begotten of the Spirit, not of the flesh. If I am begotten of the flesh, it is from below; if I’m begotten of God, it is from above. He tells me I’m reborn through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead. I am told I am… |
549363 |
| 1965-04-30 [exact/certain/final] |
My Husband |
So it’s all yours. But it isn’t yours as John Brown, it isn’t mine as Neville Goddard, it isn’t yours as Mary Smith; it is only yours as Jesus Christ. So if tonight you dare to assume “I am Christ”…I don’t care what the world will tell you, let them speculate. I am not speculating; I am speaking from experience. So you say “I am Christ” and don’t bat an eye…and feel what it would be like to be this Christ. For I know in my own case when that power possessed me and I rose within myself, entombed; and if, as Peter said in his 1 st letter, the 1 st chapter, the 3 rd verse, “We are born again… |
549368 |
| 1965-04-30 [exact/certain/final] |
My Husband |
Then he reappears in your world. He disappears for a while then he reappears. So God disappeared from our world. We thought he was in the stars, we thought he was in the sun, we thought he was in something else. He disappeared because he hid his face from us for a short season. We didn’t know he so became us that that was his hiding. He is so close, so much our very being that he is to us a hidden God. But he was never so far off as even to be near, for nearness implies separation. That’s what he was. He so became us that he was to us like a hidden God, and we thought he might be even near… |
549378 |
| 1965-06-04 [exact/certain/final] |
On the Mysteries |
Then comes the wind. This is the Spirit of God. The word spirit and wind are the same word in both Greek and Hebrew. Here comes the wind, the unearthly wind, and you for a moment are diverted from that pale face, and looking back just a matter of moments later the body is gone. They have removed the body of the Lord. But in its place are seated three men—one where the head was and two where the feet were. You look at it, look at them. They can’t see you. They can see the body…not the body, the body is gone…they can’t see you. But they hear the wind, the strange wind, and they’re disturbed,… |
533272 |
| 1965-06-22 [exact/certain/final] |
Scripture Must Be Fulfilled in Us |
So she bore witness. Because six weeks prior to that she found herself in a similar trance-like state, in a room like this, and as she stated towards the end she noticed over here is a coffin, and she was curious, so she walked over and there she saw herself in a coffin. But she wasn’t disturbed, it didn’t frighten her. She said, “Why, that’s me. Well, if that, and I’m out of it, that is an awakening.” I would like to change the word resurrection to awakening, really. For in my own experience I awoke to find myself in my skull, knowing the skull to be a tomb. Well, if it’s a tomb, someone… |
533343 |
| 1965-06-22 [exact/certain/final] |
Scripture Must Be Fulfilled in Us |
That’s all I can tell you. So in some strange way you and I pre-existed. So when we’re told we’re being formed into the likeness of God, we pre-existed. We were always God…completely fragmented into this restricted area of a little skull called the individual man, for a reason beyond the wildest dream of man. Then all of a sudden this skull breaks, and the thing is rolled away, and you come out. Another skull breaks and so you come out, you haven’t lost your identity. I came out, I haven’t lost mine. But we move into and are incorporated into one body. There aren’t numberless little bodies… |
533345 |
| 1965-06-25 [exact/certain/final] |
The Fundamental Sin |
And then I tell you from experience—I am not theorizing, I am not speculating, I’m telling you what I have experienced—that every person in this world will be resurrected and incorporated into the body of God, without loss of their specific identity, that one being, wearing the body of God. |
533385 |
| 1965-06-25 [exact/certain/final] |
The Fundamental Sin |
Well, Sir, I believe that many have. I am not in a position to judge, I am not a judge of the experiences of others, because if I say that my mother had me in a certain way and my niece had a child—four so far—in a different way, that because my mother bore twelve of us—two didn’t survive; ten survived; they’re still in this world of ours—and my niece has four in a Caesarean manner, if I said because I was born in the way that my mother bore me that all children must be born that way or not be born, then I am leaving the world of experience to the world of logic. And so that’s stupid. So I… |
533422 |
| 1965-06-29 [exact/certain/preferred] |
Summary |
Resurrected, just as told you in scripture, to find yourself in the tomb of your skull where God himself entered. For when you find yourself in that skull, may I tell you, there is no opening, just like an egg, but you know it’s your skull. You don’t see these sockets of the eyes. Were I in a skull and there’s no flesh on it, I should look through sockets; and the mouth and the ears, all these should be open. But when you find yourself in your skull and you are in your skull, it’s sealed, completely sealed like an egg. |
533966 |
| 1965-11-02 [exact/certain/final] |
Life Is a Race |
And I am standing as I am now, and I am just as big relative to this as I was that night when I rose in my skull. The whole thing…I’m alone, there’s no one at my side. So I pushed and I came out. As I came out I laid on the floor for a little while, two seconds, and then I looked back at that out of which I came, and it was this…the head, ghastly pale and turning this way from side to side. As I looked at it, contemplating this out of which I came, the wind disturbed me, a peculiar wind, which is the Spirit of God. Then I was diverted, because I thought it came in that direction, and as I… |
533502 |
| 1965-11-30 [exact/probable/final] |
Advent |
I do come out, head first, and you’re coming out in a peculiar way like a child being born, but you’re a man. Then you pull yourself out, just as you’re told in the 30th chapter of the Book of Jeremiah. He does not answer the question; he asks the question, “Can a man bear a child?”—the obvious answer is no—“Why then do I see every man with his hands on his hips, drawing himself out of himself, just like a woman in labor? Why has every face turned pale?” That’s exactly what you’re going to experience. So you come out, and here is the thing out of which you’ve just emerged. |
532185 |
| 1965-11-30 [exact/probable/final] |
Advent |
So the first one he gives me is an infant wrapped in swaddling clothes; and then I know who I am. For I look and here are the witnesses to the event. They don’t see me…how could they see the risen man? They still belong to this age. They see the sign of something that has happened and they know the meaning of that sign, but they questioned. They cannot believe that it could happen to one they knew so intimately in this world of mortal men. How could it happen to him? We know him backwards, his weaknesses, his limitations, all the things about him. And here, he sees it, and one of them… |
532187 |
| 1965-11-30 [exact/probable/final] |
Advent |
The second one he gives me. Because he gives me two in fulfillment of the 9th of Isaiah: Upon this day “to us a child is born, a son is given”. They are two entirely different children: The child is born, the son is given. Yet they are both signs and portents in Israel from the God of hosts. They’re all signs. The first one is the sign of your own birth into an entirely different world, and the second one is a sign of the risen Father in you. |
532188 |
| 1966 [exact/certain/final] |
Resurrection |
It begins with his resurrection and birth from above. “The dead heard the voice of the child And began to awake from sleep: All things heard the voice of the child And began to awake to life.” — William Blake While sleeping on his bed and dreaming of the redeemed society of a city “full of boys and girls playing in the streets thereof”, an intense vibration centered at the base of his skull awakens him, “Awake, O sleeper, and arise from the dead, and Christ shall give you light”. As he wakes, he finds that he is not in the room where he fell asleep, but in his own skull (Golgotha). His skull… |
542366 |
| 1966 [exact/probable/preferred] |
My Husband |
And you know the prophets who prophesied the coming of this strange supernatural being. They inquired what personal time is being given by this strange God, as they were inspired by the Scripture. But they were told that time is not yet. So until the time came, you never want to foresee how it will end. And you know, this wonderful mystery and prospect is so different from what it comes to be seen by those who experience it in retrospect. I myself, I could never have envisioned what would happen before it did happen. So here I am sharing with you — this is how it happens. And you never want… |
964947 |
| 1966-01-14 [exact/certain/final] |
The Bible Is All About You |
Priests will circumnavigate the world to make one proselyte and bar him from going in, because they themselves have lost the key. They’re so completely concerned with ritual and outside paraphernalia they know nothing of the kingdom of God within them. And this whole drama must unfold within us. So the pathway of salvation is so very short, really. When the first bud appears, the tree falls into bloom in just three and a half years…just completely falls into full bloom in three and a half years. No one can see the bloom, no mortal eye can see the flowers, no mortal eye sees that Tree of Life… |
534036 |
| 1966-01-14 [exact/certain/final] |
The Bible Is All About You |
The Book of Acts associates the grave with rising from the dead, and it is said they laid him in a tomb and God raised him from the dead. The tomb is present right here. Don’t be disturbed if you should drop this night. And what I will now call the tomb…I will speak of this…but, really, it isn’t this little physical skull; it is an eternal skull, really, in a way where God is buried, where no man has ever yet been buried. It’s a skull…it’s your skull. One day he breathes upon it, he breathes upon himself, and that breath is called “a wind, the sound of a trumpet.” The word sound is simply a… |
534039 |
| 1966-01-24 [exact/certain/final] |
Everyone Has the Plan in Him |
As you look at it, the wind seems to increase, only now it’s divided. It’s still in your head, but it’s over in the corner. For a moment you’re distracted because of it and you wonder, what is it, a hurricane, a cyclone? It’s far greater than any wind you’ve heard. And so, as you look over, once more you turn back and here this thing, this garment, the body isn’t there. But in its place you find three men, one where the head was and two where the feet were. You look…they can’t see you. You’re more powerful, you’re more wise, and you are invisible. You can discern every thought that they… |
534113 |
| 1966-01-28 [exact/certain/final] |
What Must We Do Believe |
So here, as we are coming to a close, I thought I would give you, night after night, from now on, just things that would really fire you in some way to try it. It will prove itself here. And then I hope that you will believe me concerning the message of salvation, for that’s the important thing I bring now. For I was sent before I knew the message, the message of salvation; I was called and sent. But all that I knew from experience was that a change of attitude on my part would result in a change of behavior in the outer world. I saw it, I practiced it and it worked. And so, having seen it… |
546895 |
| 1966-02-08 [exact/certain/final] |
Invisible Things |
All that happened to me in these four mighty acts were all involuntary, every one. Not one did I deliberately conjure. You can’t do it. It’s grace. You don’t earn it. Just, at a moment in time, the time has been fulfilled, and when the time is fulfilled, it happens, and you unfold. |
534365 |
| 1966-02-15 [exact/certain/final] |
The Name of God Is the Key to Understanding the Bible |
So no one…he said, “Look here, here’s Christ! Don’t believe him.” Why? “It does not yet appear what we shall be, but we know that when he appears we shall be like him, and see him just as he is”. You shall be like him. Well, if I’m not like him in my own mind’s eye, well, then I haven’t seen him. But if David called him Father and he called me Father; and if he is the one who is resurrected from the grave, and I was; and if he is the one who is born from above and had witnesses to the birth that came from above, not from below, not the womb of woman but the skull of man, and I was; and if the… |
548988 |
| 1966-02-22 [exact/certain/final] |
The Eternal Plan |
[...] that we may remember what I’ve tried to say through the months, or years for that matter, because we so quickly forget, and if we aren’t constantly reminded, off we go into all kinds of blind alleys. Since 1959 I have been in the unique position to share with you God’s plan of salvation. I did not know it before. I knew his law, taught it, practiced it, tried to live by it, and for years helped hundreds and hundreds to change their world to make it conform to their dreams. But in July, I can say with Paul, to me this grace was given: to preach and to make known to all men what is the… |
534454 |
| 1966-02-22 [exact/certain/final] |
The Eternal Plan |
Now let us go back and make it clear though I’ve said it time and time again—and don’t think I am repeating it just to repeat it. I repeat it because it’s necessary. You can’t tell this story too often. I’m speaking this night as I have since July of 1959 from experience. I am one with Paul in that statement, “To me this grace has been given.” Grace is God’s gift of himself to man. God gave me himself when he unfolded himself in me. When he resurrected, that’s the beginning of the New Age. |
534467 |
| 1966-02-22 [exact/certain/final] |
The Eternal Plan |
Did you hear the question? Since my resurrection and my birth from above, have I had the same experience that I mentioned in The Search where this experience I was smitten through and through by a greater self and yet myself? I have had it time and time since. To say I sit down and do it at will, Ben, no. These things come suddenly upon you. While I’m sitting at home, when I’m on my bed, and sometimes when I’m on the street it comes suddenly. But I’m in the world of Caesar. |
534513 |
| 1966-10-04 [exact/certain/final] |
Eternity Within |
David, one day, having slept with his fathers (plural) will awaken in you. And you, being the Father, will awaken and rise from Golgotha, your skull, for the place where they laid him and the place where he rose was in the City of David. David’s burial place, as told us in the third chapter of Nehemiah, is after the stairs that go down from the City of David to the Fountain Head. Exploding within, you rise from the sepulcher where Jesus Christ is buried. Five months later David explodes within you and you cry, “I have found David, he has cried unto me, ‘Thou art my Father, my God and the Rock… |
534576 |
| 1966-10-07 [exact/probable/final] |
Free or Slave |
I didn’t know who the other one was until it happened to me, on the morning of July the 20th, 1959, when I came out of the other womb, and she is from above, right out of my own skull. When I rose within myself, resurrected, and came out as though one who is being born, to find the entire, wonderful symbolism of scripture unfolding before me, and I am the chief actor in the drama. But all the things mentioned, they are present—the three men, the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes, everything is present…out of the woman from above. So we’re told, the one from above, she bears us into freedom;… |
534873 |
| 1966-11-28 [exact/certain/final] |
An Apostle |
And to do it, God buried himself within me and took upon himself this form, the form of a slave. He slept and shared with me then as he made me alive horrible dreams, nightmares, horrors, the wars, the conflicts of the world. Then one day he awakes and calls me into his risen state, and embraces me, and sends me back to experience thirty years later the drama as foretold in the gospel: The resurrection, the birth; the discovery of the fatherhood of God through his son calling me Father; then the tearing of the curtain of the temple, which is my body, and lifting me up into Zion; and then the… |
550146 |
| 1966-12-06 [exact/certain/final] |
The Word |
All of a sudden I am confronted with the fact; and one is telling me of the good news, the good fortune of his friend, who happens to be my friend, and I witness. Then, where is Christ? “All things were made through him, and without him was not anything made that was made.” Well now, who is he? Did I not do it? Is not that Word now growing within me? Long before it actually unfolds—in the form of the child, and David, and the tearing of the curtain of my body from top to bottom, and my ascent into the heaven of heavens, and then the dove—long before, I was sensing the power that was rising… |
543370 |
| 1966-12-09 [exact/certain/final] |
We Are Witnesses |
So here, another aspect…all these are similar. I’m not going to say that you and I must have the identical…we have the same experience, but it must not be a duplicate in the sense that it’s a copy. The birth of the child may come differently from my own case. Someone reaches up to his head, holding it from the forehead, and it falls into his arms. That’s different, but it doesn’t mean that it is not the birth. One is severed from top to bottom and it’s a gentle thing. It was not so in my case. Mine was a violent act, but without pain. It was so quick. If I took a sharp, sharp knife now and… |
535005 |
| 1966-12-09 [exact/certain/final] |
We Are Witnesses |
Matthew doesn’t tell it as Luke does. Matthew speaks of three kings who came, and Luke of three shepherds. Shepherds…he didn’t say three…but he said shepherds. In my own case they were normal ordinary men and there were three. But, in Matthew he named them as kings, and they were brothers who came as kings. Tradition has it that they were kings, and all were brothers. In my own case they were not kings but they were brothers. They were my brothers, but they were normal ordinary men that I played with and wrestled with and fought with…and loved dearly. But they were my brothers. They certainly… |
535008 |
| 1967-02-17 [exact/certain/final] |
Remembrance of Things Future |
I am a man, I have two children, and here I’m not afraid or ashamed to say I gave birth to the Christ child. If I gave birth to the Christ child and only woman can do it, well then, I am woman. I am that woman that gave birth to the Christ child. So we speak of Mary, well, I tell you I am Mary and birth to God not only must give, I gave. So everyone is Mary, male or female; the Virgin Mary, this is man. Everyone gives birth to the Christ child, male and female. |
535110 |
| 1967-02-21 [exact/probable/final] |
Imagining Creates Reality |
Will I elucidate my view on resurrection? I’ve told it in my last book and I’ve called it “ Resurrection .” It is a confession of faith in terms of my own personal experience. You’ll find it told there more clearly than I could in the time allotted. But, maybe if this is your first time, I will give you a picture of it. Man will one day rise within himself, all in his skull. He’ll go to sleep as he’s slept night after night through the years. If he had an unusual night…and during the night…in my own case, it came in the wee hours of the morning, a little after four. I felt vibrations that I… |
548722 |
| 1967-03-10 [exact/certain/final] |
The Riddle |
If you give a book, I know of no better book than my present one. I speak of the last chapter—it’s the true story of Easter. Some are in the habit of giving books at Easter. Well, that last chapter, which I have titled Resurrection, is the true story, not based upon hearsay, but on my own personal experience of the resurrection and all that goes with it. Alright, Ben? |
549214 |
| 1967-03-24 [exact/certain/final] |
He Wakes in Me |
And may I tell you, what a power! It is called the power of God and the power of God comes to you just like a wind. At first you feel it like a vibration…but it is just like a wind, an unearthly wind. And when it hits you, years after this…for this was 1946 when there was the transfigured self. Then 1959 came the resurrection and the resurrection precedes one’s privileged birth from above into an entirely new age. But resurrection comes first. It begins the entire drama of Christianity, although, all these signs precede it, like the transfigured self, and you feel yourself this being of fire,… |
535348 |
| 1967-03-24 [exact/certain/final] |
He Wakes in Me |
But in its place sit three men. You recognize the three…here one at the head and two where the feet were. They heard the same wind. One gets up, he’s terribly concerned. As he starts toward the same direction where you heard the wind, his attention is attracted to something on the floor. He looks down and before he even picks it up, he announces, calling you by name—in my case, he called me by name—he said, “Why, it’s Neville’s baby.” And the other two, in incredulous voices, said, “How could Neville have a baby?” Well, he doesn’t argue the point; he lifts the evidence. It’s an infant wrapped… |
535361 |
| 1967-04-07 [exact/certain/final] |
Put On the Lord Jesus Christ |
Now comes my resurrection. I am first of all awakened, for resurrection is simply the awakening. I awaken within my skull to find myself completely locked. It’s a sealed tomb. And then I come out. As I come out, that’s my exodus. My emergence from the tomb is my exodus from Egypt; and that is the hour of Israel’s birth: the man who is going to rule in the place of God, and he rules as God. So that’s the next name I acquire, Mighty God. |
535499 |
| 1967-04-17 [exact/probable/final] |
Jesus or Barabbas |
So here I tell you, let us find the real Jesus. Victor didn’t find him in that church. And when I told the story to Vic, he said, “Well, I always thought much of that man. I admired him as a businessman, but now he’s gone all the way down in my estimation” because he saw what spite could do. Yet he died believing he was a believer in Jesus. Never found him. But now don’t you die from this little sphere without finding him. If tonight you’re disturbed, you take it under submission, take it home with you, and sleep on it, and feel the nearness of Jesus as your own wonderful human Imagination. I… |
542860 |
| 1967-04-17 [exact/probable/final] |
Jesus or Barabbas |
And so, all of a sudden when I least expected it, the event happened as recorded; and not a thing changed, just as told in scripture. Well, if he is the only one who is born that way, and I know I was, then am I not he? And when you duplicate the same experience, are you not he? And if only Jesus is born that way, haven’t you found Jesus, because you’ve found him as your own I-am-ness. Because when you awake, you are awake; and you come out, it’s you coming out. Then three men come and take away the body, and the body’s all taken away, and three men are there. You know the three men of… |
542861 |
| 1967-04-24 [exact/certain/final] |
Going Up to Jerusalem |
So here, when I that night was bathed in the blood of the Lamb, I didn’t come out any red. We’re told he came out shining white. He came out bathed in the blood of the Lamb and his clothes and his robes turned into raiments, into white. For that night—I can see it now, it was the night of the 8th of April, 1960, that’s when it happened to me—when my temple was split from top to bottom and here came that pool of golden liquid light, which is the blood of the Lamb. When I looked at the blood of the Lamb, I knew it was myself, it was not another, that I was my own Creator and Redeemer; and then… |
535745 |
| 1967-09-22 [exact/certain/final] |
Prophetic Sketches |
I never once entertained the thought that I was in a coffin, that this skull of mine was a tomb. I looked upon my skull as something very much alive and hoped that it would not be injured, for everything that I knew in this world I had brought forth from this head of mine. Yet, when the vibration possessed me I began to awaken as I have never awakened before, to find myself completely entombed in my skull. I was alone and the tomb was completely sealed. There was no way out except by rolling away the stone, which I did from within, with no help from one on the outside. I knew intuitively that… |
535847 |
| 1967-09-22 [exact/certain/final] |
Prophetic Sketches |
In the 7th chapter of 2 Samuel, the prophet said to David: “The Lord declares to you, ‘I will raise up your son after you, who will come forth from your body. I will be his father and he will be my son.’” I didn’t realize I was so sound asleep that I was dead, until the night when I was awakened and came forth from the coffin of myself. The Lord declared through his prophet Samuel that he will be my father, but I did not know it then. |
535855 |
| 1967-09-22 [exact/certain/final] |
Prophetic Sketches |
Listen carefully to the words in the 20th chapter of the Book of John: “Go to my brethren and say to them, I am ascending to my Father and your Father, to my God and your God.” How will you ascend? By God’s Son calling you Father. When it pleases God to reveal his Son in you, then you are sent. This comes five months after your resurrection. “Do not touch me as I have not yet ascended to the Father.” Here you discover that there are intervals of time between the resurrection and the statement: “I am leaving the world and going to the Father.” For you go to the awareness of being the Father… |
535863 |
| 1967-10-20 [exact/certain/final] |
The Signs of the End |
So, everyone is moving forward through the frightful tribulation of the world; and suddenly, when he least expects it. The night it happened to me, on the 20th day of July of 1959 – eight years ago – in the City of San Francisco, I hadn’t the slightest idea that this was in store for me that night. I went to sleep normally. I called my wife and daughter in Beverly Hills and had a little chat. I read a few passages of the Bible, I read a bit of Blake, and retired. In the wee hours of the morning here comes this uncontrollable vibration in my skull, waking me from my eternal sleep; but it… |
542506 |
| 1967-10-27 [exact/certain/final] |
Love Divided from Imagination |
And so, believe me, I’ve experienced it. I can see that enormous field of perfection. You’ve never seen such beautiful faces, like sunflowers, each flower a face…and yet, a chorus. It was only a chorus. But, you are not chorus, you are soloists. You are individualized. And only complete incarnation can individualize us. So I had to be completely incarnated and isolated…feel myself separated from everything, including my earthly mother, loving her as I do, and my father, and my brothers, and my sister, my wife, my children. I went into something entirely different, completely isolated. This… |
536284 |
| 1967-11-20 [exact/certain/final] |
Building Your Temple |
So, if you are united with him in a death like his, you will certainly be united with him in a resurrection like his. I know this is true, for he was resurrected in me, confirming the story of scripture. This is how the structure is enhanced and grows in God. |
531550 |
| 1967-12-01 [exact/probable/preferred] |
Christmas: The Birth That Gives Eternal Life |
He wasn’t concerned with this level at all. He was telling what he actually saw as he climbed the mountain. “When men and mountains meet”—and his mountain was the Bible, and he would conquer it, and he did. He wasn’t concerned with this level at all. Money meant nothing. Prestige meant nothing. He simply climbed the mountain as he simply unraveled that book within himself. For the book is contained within, it’s all within us. So, Christmas, the 25th of December, so what! It happened on the 20th of October with Benny, the 20th of July with me, and my friend Bob, it happened on a different day… |
536938 |
| 1967-12-01 [exact/probable/preferred] |
Christmas: The Birth That Gives Eternal Life |
[...] the three shepherds? My dear, it is such a marvelous story and so true. They came from the East. Now, east and west are relative. We are not west of New York City, but we’re east of Hawaii. So we speak of ourselves as living in the West. West relative to what? Relative to everything that is east as the sun moves. Of course, we are still east relative to Hawaii, Japan, China, and so on. In my own personal case, my brothers live 5,000 miles from here, east of California. I was in San Francisco when my birth took place and they were in Barbados that was 5,000 miles away. So the wise men… |
536961 |
| 1967-12-11 [exact/probable/preferred] |
Christmas, the Birth of Christ in Man |
Well, this wonderful day that is approaching the outer world is a day that takes place in man. It’s a moment in time. In my own case it was not December the 25th, it was the 20th day of July of 1959. That was my Christmas. And my discovery of the fatherhood of God was on the 6th day of December of ’59. My splitting of the curtain of the temple of my own body was on the 8th day of April, 1960. And the descent of the dove upon me, smothering me with love, was on the 1st day of January in 1963. So these days are indelibly impressed upon me. But I do not use them as anniversaries, I simply wrote… |
536914 |
| 1967-12-15 [exact/certain/final] |
Imparting and Implanting the Word |
There were three of my brothers present when it happened in me. The one who was the youngest of three lifted the child and declared whose child it was; and when he said, “It’s Neville’s baby” the others denied it by asking in the most incredulous manner, “How could Neville have a baby?” But he didn’t argue the point he simply presented the evidence, the infant wrapped in swaddling clothes. Well, a few years later he did depart this world. He was the youngest of the three who were present, but he went first, leaving behind the two who are still so busy about making money. They’re darlings, may… |
536848 |
| 1968-02-08 [exact/certain/final] |
The Last Days |
The last days begin with your awakening to the realization that you have been entombed in your own skull; that you have been dreaming this world into being. You think you are fully awake right now, yet you are dreaming the dream of life. I know, for when I awoke within my skull I had no memory of how or when I was placed there, I only knew I was alone in an empty skull, and I came out of it just as a child comes out of the womb of a woman. Being born from above, I found all the symbolism of scripture unfolding before me: a babe wrapped in swaddling clothes and the three witnesses to the event… |
531875 |
| 1968-02-12 [exact/certain/final] |
Salvation History |
Well, Tom, they could. I doubt it, I doubt it. They believe that if you simply bottle up the energy that is going down into generation that you could in some way reverse it into regeneration. You can’t do it, you just can’t do it. That is an act of the splitting of the temple. When that curtain is split from top to bottom, your whole body is split; and then you see the whole energy that was at the base of the spine, that living, wonderful, golden liquid light. You merge with it. You are the observer, and you merge with it, and you are it. Then you go like a serpent right up into your head. So… |
537261 |
| 1968-02-26 [exact/certain/final] |
The State of Vision |
Nothing, however, can be done to earn God’s gift of grace. When God’s promise fulfills itself, it happens suddenly and so dramatically that you have no time to think about it. In fact, you will not even recognize it, unless you hear it from someone who has experienced it. I know, as far as I am concerned, I never heard it from a man, or saw the Bible’s story as relating to me. But I know from experience that the truth comes through an act of God in self revelation, for God is hidden in the mind of man and unveils himself as man! |
537431 |
| 1968-03-01 [exact/certain/final] |
They Related Their Own Experiences |
No. As we are told in the Psalms and told that in the epistle of Peter : “When the scoffers come scoffing, asking, where is he, he who is to come?”…they do not know a thousand years is but a day in the eyes of the Lord, as the 90th Psalm gives it to us, so that you can’t judge time in this sense at all. No one knows that moment in time but the Father…when it could be now, this very moment. Any one here could hear that wind that would possess them. And everything would become invisible to them, and they would enter that inn…as I quoted earlier tonight: “Does the road wind uphill all the way?… |
548039 |
| 1968-03-04 [exact/certain/final] |
The Way |
So I came to the point of David. And I said to him that after the birth of the Christ child within me, a child that I held in my own hands, and expressed my feeling of tenderness towards the Christ child, that five months later I encountered God’s only begotten son, and his name is David, David of scripture. “I will tell of the decree of the Lord: He said unto me, ‘Thou art my son, today I have begotten thee’” . |
544073 |
| 1968-03-15 [exact/certain/final] |
An Inner Conviction |
My friend, Benny, does not remember the embrace, but I remember it well. It was in 1929. I was fully aware of the embrace, just as I was fully aware of its fulfillment in 1959, so I can tell anyone from my own experience how it happens, but I can’t tell you when if you cannot remember the embrace. Only after impregnation can I prophesy as to what, and when these things will come into being. |
537485 |
| 1968-03-15 [exact/certain/final] |
Truth of Conception Known by Feeling, It Inspires |
Then comes that moment in time when he is elected, he is called, and he’s embraced. Now, stand upon your watch and watch it from this moment on, for it has its own appointed time. Benny called me today. After all, Benny was only thirty when it happened to him, so he could not have known the embrace. But there are others who are not aware of the moment of the embrace. So watch for it. In my own case, I was old enough to know it, it was 1929, and I am fully aware of that moment of the embrace. Then came 1959 when it happened. So I can say to anyone from my own experience this is how it happens.… |
537527 |
| 1968-03-15 [exact/certain/final] |
An Inner Conviction |
Although I did not know what would become of it, I kept a record of what happened to me in 1929, so when I was born from above and raised from within myself in 1959, I looked back to discover that it was thirty years. I discovered that Jesus began his ministry when he was thirty years of age, and that Israel made their exodus thirty years after the four hundred recorded in Genesis. We are going to celebrate this exodus in the immediate future as the Passover, “a day to keep in memory forever.” For “this is a night of watching by the Lord. On this day the Lord will bring the entire host of… |
537488 |
| 1968-03-15 [exact/certain/final] |
Truth of Conception Known by Feeling, It Inspires |
But we don’t make records, we don’t keep an account of these things to find out how these eggs hatch out. For a concept is only an egg, but it remains an egg unfertilized until I occupy it. If I occupy it and feel the certainty of it, well then, if I know how long it takes I could prophesy. In my own case, I kept a record in ’29 so I knew it happened. What would ever come of that I didn’t know, but I knew it happened then. So wait…1959 I was born from above, raised from within. I knew then that that was an interval of thirty years. Reading back into scripture I found that he was thirty years… |
537531 |
| 1968-03-15 [exact/certain/final] |
Truth of Conception Known by Feeling, It Inspires |
I’m only following scripture. My pattern has been a complete scriptural pattern, from the embrace, the birth, the resurrection, the empty tomb, the three who witnessed the birth; everything of scripture I followed faithfully. There’s no deviation in my pattern. But I’m not saying because it has happened this way to me that it is the only way. So let everyone have their experience. |
537557 |
| 1968-03-22 [exact/certain/final] |
Infinite States |
Now let me share with you a word that I use night after night. The word is “David” and means “lover; beloved” but specifically “father’s brother.” We are all brothers, yet after my resurrection and return into unity David (father’s brother) called me Father. The day will come when David will call you Father too, for he is the father’s brother. We are all brothers of the highest unity, predestined to resurrect into that unity which was broken in our fall into division. |
535929 |
| 1968-04-08 [exact/certain/final] |
Suffering Is Like That of David |
So the resurrection comes first and it comes within man. It’s an individual experience. It’s not a collective experience, it’s an individual experience, and it comes not at the end but within history. And where does it happen?—in you. “And many who sleep in the dust shall awaken.” It’s an awakening, it’s a peculiar awakening, something that I have never experienced before or since save that moment. I can’t quite describe how you feel when you awaken. It’s something entirely different. Well now, what is the dust? People think of a cemetery. “Many of those who sleep in the dust shall awaken.”… |
537876 |
| 1968-04-12 [exact/certain/final] |
Real Meaning of Good Friday and Easter |
My religion is infinite power and taking upon himself the form of man. He said that he emptied himself and took upon himself the form of man, becoming obedient unto death, even the death upon the cross . So a complete, I would say, abdication. He just simply completely abdicated his infinite power and assumed the limitations of this concrete state called man, but he had not yet died; the death comes at the splitting of the temple. It’s concealed, but if you read it carefully, “And he yielded up the spirit,” and that was when he died. Now, Luke reversed it—it yields it up first and then comes… |
538005 |
| 1968-04-26 [exact/certain/final] |
The World Is Imaginal in Character |
When he begins to unveil it in you, he first begins with resurrection, which is followed instantly, that same moment, by birth from above. Then a passage of months, five months, and then comes the discovery of his Son, who calls you Father. That Son is not Jesus Christ; Jesus Christ is God the Father. That Son who calls him Father is David of biblical fame. Then will come that moment in time when the temple of his body, which is your body now, for he has woven himself into you and now he unwinds himself as you. You’re told the curtain of the temple was flesh and it split in two from top to… |
550541 |
| 1968-05-01 [exact/certain/final] |
Divine Signs |
In 1929 I had union with the Risen Lord, and 30 years later, in 1959, I was born from above. If the part you are predestined to play in the body of God calls for a shorter interval, your birth may happen sooner; but my part has been a complete unfoldment of scripture, and it has taken 30 years. We are told that when Jesus began his ministry he was about thirty years of age. This does not mean thirty years after a physical birth, but thirty years after the spiritual union. When your spiritual birth will take place only the Father knows; but we are told in the Book of Habakkuk: “Every vision… |
538120 |
| 1968-05-03 [exact/probable/final] |
Natural Effects Have Spiritual Causes |
And may I tell you, it seems strange in this world to make these statements, but I know from experience they are true. I know how we play these parts after we are awakened from the dream of life. Then man is twice born, born from above, if he’s of that school, that spirit, and then we re-enter like a serpent. If you go up in a small little way like this, that’s not it. But when you go up as though you were a bolt of spiral lightning and you vibrate the entire skull and you’re still vibrating it, trying to get out and finally you subside, that’s the power that he can use. That’s the one that… |
548825 |
| 1968-05-20 [exact/certain/final] |
Creation and Faith |
God’s promise has fulfilled itself in me. I have recorded it for posterity as vividly and as accurately as I can in my book, Resurrection. You can read of my experiences and believe them or disbelieve them. It’s up to you. Perhaps at the present time you do not want to leave this sphere and enter the kingdom of heaven. |
531901 |
| 1968-05-31 [exact/certain/final] |
The Cup of Foaming Wine |
The end will come suddenly upon man in a series of dramatic mystical experiences, his birth and resurrection from above; resurrection first, followed immediately by the birth. Then the discovery of the Fatherhood of God as himself because the Father’s Son calls him Father. Then the complete splitting of the curtain of the temple and it is his own body that is split. Then his ascent into the Holy of Holies in the only way that you could never get up: He goes up in a serpentine form, because he’s going into Zion. And David captures Zion by going up the stairway in a circular motion. For if we… |
538163 |
| 1968-06-10 [exact/certain/final] |
The Remnant |
The thirty years, last 59th of this century, I was sent…rather, I was called and sent. Now, that is my birth from above was in ’59 and here it is now my ninth year. So it’s been now thirty-nine years since that conscious union with God and incorporation into his body, becoming one body, one Spirit with the risen Lord. And I knew the night of the birth the mission that was mine. Now I’m telling you I cannot boast for the simple reason such an undertaking as this no one who is sent commissions himself. I didn’t volunteer, I was drafted. I certainly didn’t volunteer. I was called, incorporated… |
538322 |
| 1968-07-15 [exact/certain/final] |
Who Am I? |
I didn’t realize that day, which was in 1959, that that drama was literally true until, within me, the whole thing began to unfold when my whole head became the most intense vibration, and I found myself awaking, awaking from a long, long sleep. And where did I awake? I awoke within my skull! My skull was a tomb, and it’s sealed; and then I came out of it like a child coming out of the womb of a woman, and then the entire drama of Scripture confronts me. Here the wind, as told us in the 3rd chapter of the book of John, when he tells Nicodemus: “You must be born again.” And that word… |
543150 |
| 1968-07-15 [exact/certain/final] |
Who Am I? |
Now, this may be a little different from what you had last year, or even in previous years; but this is based upon the experience of the last year and ten months. Not my own personal experience, for they go back to 1959, but I mean this confirmation from those in the audience. |
543170 |
| 1968-07-17 [exact/certain/final] |
The Pattern Man |
Well, this erupted in me on the 20th day of July 1959, in this City of San Francisco. On the 6th day of December was the second eruption of the same year, ’59. On the 8th day of April of 1960 was the third eruption, and then on the first day of January of 1963 for the fourth eruption. When you add from the 20th day of July 1959 to the first day of January 1963, you will see it comes to 1,260 days − right to the day. |
543072 |
| 1968-07-17 [exact/certain/final] |
The Pattern Man |
If He was born from above, and you are born from above, if the infant child is brought to you as the sign of your birth, as it was brought in the cave − as we call it in the Scripture, and if there are witnesses there to record this birth − the child was not the thing born; the child was the evidence of something that was born. God was born. So, you are told in the Scripture, “And this shall be a sign unto you.” What sign? “You shall find a babe wrapped in swaddling clothes lying in a manger.” So, they went in haste, and they found just as it was told. They found what? The sign of a birth!… |
543081 |
| 1968-07-23 [exact/certain/final] |
The Power and the Wisdom |
Here he is personalized as a little child, God’s companion in the creation of the world. When you read it, it doesn’t make sense, but I tell you from my own personal experience, having practiced the art of repentance and having experienced the birth from above with the little child, I know exactly what the prophet meant when he was inspired to write those words. |
528728 |
| 1968-07-25 [exact/certain/final] |
Awake O Sleeper |
So, this is simply becoming awake, rousing the God- within-us. And then, one day to your – well, surprise is not a good word for it because you are so shattered by the experience – that thereafter you can’t rub it out of the mind. In my own case it happened in ’59 – almost ten years, and, yet, every moment of time I dwell upon it. I could hardly believe that this thing was so literally true – God’s Promise to man – that every child born of woman would one day actually discover that he is the Lord Jesus Christ! And when it happened to you, and the whole thing begins to unfold within you like a… |
542791 |
| 1968-07-26 [exact/certain/final] |
The Signs of the End |
You are walking this earth as you did this day. You least expect it, because you were taught – as I was taught – it took place two thousand years ago. And you go to sleep as I did in 1959 in this city across the street at the hotel called the Sir Francis Drake. I spoke in the morning to an audience of maybe a thousand people. It was an open meeting – no charge, a voluntary effort, and a thousand came. The morning of July the 20th 1959, this is what happened. |
551215 |
| 1968-07-26 [exact/certain/final] |
The Signs of the End |
It was a normal day, just like today, and at four o’clock in the morning a vibration is in my head that I have never felt before – the strangest vibration. Every bone in my head is rattling, and I entertained this thought. I thought, “Well, now, this is it,” meaning – this is my exit from this world. This must be a massive hemorrhage as they describe a massive hemorrhage. Instead of that, I found myself waking. Here I am, waking – waking, but when I completely awoke, I am in my skull, and my skull is a tomb. It is an actual tomb, and I am in my skull, and the skull is sealed. There is no… |
551217 |
| 1968-07-26 [exact/certain/final] |
The Signs of the End |
That is the sign – the first sign. You start counting from there now. This happened on the morning of the 20th of July, 1959 when the woman in me – which is the woman in every one which is called in Scripture, “Jerusalem from above,” “Zion;” this is the Great Mother that brings forth to freedom. You start counting from that day. |
551220 |
| 1968-09-13 [exact/certain/final] |
One Thousand Two-Hundred Sixty Days |
Now to the 1,260 days. On July 20 of the year 1959, my day was normal. I lectured in the morning to a large audience in San Francisco. Calling my wife around 9:00 P.M., I read the Bible and a bit of Blake and retired about 11:00 P.M., expecting nothing other than a normal, restful sleep. |
538636 |
| 1968-09-13 [exact/certain/final] |
One Thousand Two-Hundred Sixty Days |
At 4:00 in the morning, a vibration centered at the base of my skull began to increase in intensity until I thought I would explode from the force of it. I am not a doctor, but I have read of massive brain hemorrhages and thought I was having one. I couldn’t conceive of living through this experience, yet I was unable to arrest it. Then I began to awaken, to discover that I was completely sealed within my own skull. I had but one consuming desire, and that was to get out of it. Intuitively knowing that if I would push the base of my skull something would give, I did, and something rolled away… |
538637 |
| 1968-09-13 [exact/certain/final] |
One Thousand Two-Hundred Sixty Days |
Now, I have recorded the date of every great mystical event I have experienced, next to the passage of scripture which parallels it. Next to the passage concerning the resurrection, I had marked July 20, 1959. That was one side of the coin, for the same night was the birth; so against the passage regarding the birth of Christ (who is the Son of God who is one with God) I also wrote the date of July 20, 1959. When another vibration exploded in my head and David of Biblical fame stood before me and called me “Father”, I wrote the date of December 6, 1959 next to the passage in the 89th Psalm,… |
538640 |
| 1968-09-13 [exact/certain/final] |
One Thousand Two-Hundred Sixty Days |
The visions come suddenly, like a thief in the night. I had no idea that the night of July 20, 1959 would differ from any other. I did not know that the story of Jesus Christ was mine. I did not know Jesus interpreted the Old Testament with himself as the very center of it; that the human imagination – our human IAMness – was He. But now I know that there never was another Jesus and there never will be another, and those who teach another are false teachers teaching a false Christ. |
538651 |
| 1968-09-23 [exact/certain/final] |
The Father |
I hope that this will be your experience in the not distant future, for you can mark it down. From ’34 to ’59 was the time allotted in my case. Then from ’59 to ’63 the four mighty acts unfold. The first is your resurrection and birth from above. The second is the discovery of David, who calls you Father. The splitting of the temple (which is your body) from top to bottom and your ascent like a serpent into heaven is the third. The descent of the dove which smothers you with love is the fourth and final mighty act of God. |
538698 |
| 1968-09-27 [exact/certain/final] |
Brazen Impudence |
Well then, dramatize that and put it into a half-hour TV, or put it into a play, and let Michelangelo’s great labor become alive. So I have made it alive because I have experienced it. So you saw correctly: The two widely separated in time are closely woven in the tapestry of life. He labored with his tremendous know-how of the human form and he could work in all these different media. And I came along to find it happening in me, without the ability to mold a stick; and yet a babe, an unearthly babe, and people and a grave, and everything in this world that even he in his giant days could not… |
538727 |
| 1968-10-07 [exact/certain/final] |
The Most Precious Gift |
You are first awakened in the tomb where you are buried. “For God Himself enters Death’s Door always with those who enter, and lays down in the very grave with them, in visions of eternity, till they awake, and when they awaken, they see the garments that the female had woven for them . . that my Mother wove for me, this garment. And here was a garment that Mother wove, born from the womb of my Mother. But my Father . . Jesus Christ . . Who gave Himself to me, awoke within me as my very Being, from the skull of my Being, which is Golgotha. And then I came out of my skull, and here surrounding… |
528134 |
| 1968-10-07 [exact/certain/final] |
The Most Precious Gift |
Then, a hundred and thirty-nine days later, a vibration similar to the one that started in me began, but now, it is centered, not at the base of my skull (which was the first), but at the top of my skull, and when it reached the apex of intensity, it seemed as though my head exploded. And when the whole thing gathered itself together, I found myself seated and looking at a lamp and here is David of Biblical fame, leaning against the side of an open door and looking out at a pastoral scene. He is just as he is described in the book of Samuel, the 16th chapter: fair . . the blonde. . beautiful… |
528135 |
| 1968-10-07 [exact/probable/preferred] |
The Spirit of Truth |
We are told, “Thy Word is truth” and now he said, “I am the truth. I am your Word.” Your Word must unfold then in me, for I am the truth and therefore I am the Word. “Do not add to his word.” Now, here is the statement in the 148th Psalm, and you will do it literally. By a storm wind he fulfills his word…by a storm wind. Well, anyone trying to write what God ought to have said is going to change that, and yet it is literally true. It is by a storm wind, a wind that possesses you and you cannot bend. You are under control and the wind clothes itself with you, and then all of a sudden the wind… |
538823 |
| 1968-10-07 [exact/certain/final] |
The Most Precious Gift |
It doesn’t come in any other way; there is only one way. God unfolds Himself within you. As He unfolds Himself within you, it begins with the Resurrection. If I told you now that you are sound, sound asleep, you wouldn’t believe me. I would not have believed it either if anyone had told me on the night of the 19th day of July in the year 1959. I was in this City. If you had told me the night I went to bed . . it was the 19th of July 1959 . . that I was sleeping, and the world was my dream, and that I was dreaming this dream of life, I would have laughed at you. And, yet, I’ve been telling… |
528143 |
| 1968-10-07 [exact/certain/final] |
The Most Precious Gift |
And, yet, on the morning of the 20th the whole drama erupted within me. It began with the Resurrection; I awoke within my own skull to find myself completely sealed within this sepulchre that is my skull. It is Golgotha, and I had been dreaming all along, and I didn’t know it. I have never been so amazed in my whole life. Here I am, completely sealed in my own skull, and I knew it to be a tomb, and I knew that someone placed me there. I did not know that God Himself entered death’s door with me when I entered, and that He laid Himself down within the tomb with me and shared with me this dream… |
528144 |
| 1968-10-14 [exact/possible/preferred] |
The Head, the Source |
But the Father being infinite, he then explodes and explodes and explodes, and it’s all you exploding. For, the whole thing is contained within, and the whole is now awakening and you’re resurrecting everything within yourself. It’s not on the outside at all. So, where did I wake? Was it not in my head? From what area of my body did I emerge? Was it not my head? And how could Christ emerge from one in whom he is not now present? If he does not now exist in me, he couldn’t emerge from me. If he ascended in me, well then, he had first to have descended. And from what area did he descend?—from… |
547527 |
| 1968-10-18 [exact/probable/final] |
A Revelation of the Risen Christ |
Then one day, he awakes in the tomb where he was placed in the beginning. And to his amazement he didn’t even know that he was ever asleep. He didn’t know that he was ever in a tomb, and never thought for one second that his skull was that tomb. He only thought of tombs in church yards, tombs in some place in the outer world where his descendants would go and say, “Grandfather is buried here or grandmother is buried here” and he thought that was the tomb, a tomb in which they placed what he thought once was something other than himself, called Jesus Christ. Then one day, he discovers… |
549027 |
| 1968-10-21 [exact/certain/final] |
Fall in Love with Christ |
Now I know that many have had the experiences and they never once recorded it. Put it down next to the parallel passage of scripture. When mine happened, instantly I wrote it in the Bible against that parallel passage. Just like the scripture tells us, that paragraph was complete in itself. If I never had another experience, I wouldn’t know there were other experiences. And so, when on the 6th day of December the other one came, I put it against its parallel passage. But the first one did not depend upon the second to exist. That first one is a complete paragraph within itself. And the second… |
545927 |
| 1968-11-11 [exact/probable/final] |
Jesus Christ: Your Creative Power |
Now follow me…I have experienced that birth. Man must hear it and it is better if he heard it from one who has experienced it. Others who can hear it and believe it, yes, but they can only speak from hearsay. I speak not from hearsay; I speak from experience, that which I know from experience concerning this spiritual birth. |
543534 |
| 1968-11-11 [exact/probable/final] |
Jesus Christ: Your Creative Power |
Nicodemus to whom he spoke wonders, “How can a man who is old re-enter his mother’s womb and be born again?” He took it on this level. He repeats it and then he shows in a strange marvelous way—which one who has experienced it will discover—how true it is. He makes this statement: “As the wind blows where it wills, and you hear the sound of it, but you cannot tell whence it comes or whither it goes; so it is with everyone who is born of the Spirit” . Well now, you read it and the word translated “spirit” is also translated “wind.” It’s the same word in Greek. But he uses it in a strange,… |
543537 |
| 1968-11-11 [exact/probable/final] |
Jesus Christ: Your Creative Power |
There is a vibration that is unearthly that possesses your head…the whole thing is simply anchored in the head. It increases in its intensity until finally you think as I thought, well now, this is what they speak of as a massive brain hemorrhage. Because I can’t see how it can go any more and not result in a massive hemorrhage. I thought this is it! But you have no time to contemplate doing anything beyond this [...] because you know this is the end as far as you are concerned. But instead of being a massive hemorrhage, you find yourself waking. Suddenly you are waking and you think for the… |
543540 |
| 1968-11-11 [exact/probable/final] |
Jesus Christ: Your Creative Power |
As you come out and look at it, the wind, this unearthly wind begins. You feel it in your head and yet you think for one moment that it is coming from the corner of the room and it’s rattling the entire house. Your head is rattling, the house is rattling, and you wonder “It must be coming from that corner.” So your attention is diverted from the body out of which you’ve just emerged, and you look over, wondering if it really is from that. You are not diverted for more than three or four seconds when you look back at where the body was, and in some peculiar way it has been removed. In its… |
543542 |
| 1968-11-11 [exact/probable/final] |
Jesus Christ: Your Creative Power |
So we find that Christ is inseparable from God. It’s his creative power, it’s his wisdom. It is not what the world has taught the whole vast world to believe, the little boy that was born 2,000 years ago. Christ that is the power of God is like the semen of God; it is like his creative power buried in man, carrying within it the image of God; and if it’s the image of God, it must contain all that is God. If God is a father, when it breaks itself and awakens in man, it must discover itself as God the Father. And that is the second grand unfoldment of the pattern in man. It comes 139 days after… |
543549 |
| 1968-11-15 [exact/certain/final] |
The Heavenly Vision |
That was the beginning, and thirty years later—as we are told, “And when he was about thirty years of age, he began his ministry” —thirty years later comes the resurrection within me and the birth from above. So that pregnancy took thirty years before it ripened and came to fulfillment in me. |
539225 |
| 1968-11-22 [exact/certain/final] |
The Name of God (I AM Is Synonymous with God) |
You will find from the beginning to the end there are 1,260 days. From the day you awaken within the skull (called Golgotha) to that moment in time when the Holy Spirit in bodily form as a dove descends upon you. Count the days…1,260 days. It comes out right on the button. And you will know you’ve finished it. Then why do I remain? You remain to tell it…how else would it be told? You become a witness: “And you shall be witnesses for me.” That is the story. |
551505 |
| 1968-12-06 [exact/certain/preferred] |
Partakers of the Divine Nature |
Now we love each other dearly and we have much in common; and yet so little in common when it comes to his passion in life which is business and my passion which is the Word of God. He thinks I am completely insane doing this with no returns when he gets such returns. But his returns are in the world of Caesar and he can’t take it with him; and my returns are in eternity and I take it with me. I don’t need any bank book when I leave here, because it is the power that you take with you…and here Christ is the power of God. Well, the gospel has completely awakened within me; I’ve experienced… |
539304 |
| 1968-12-16 [exact/certain/final] |
God Enters into His Shadow |
So Blake states the whole thing at that moment in time when time was divided between B.C. and A.D. It all started there in Blake’s strange and wonderful vision, and in his case it took 1,800 years for God to wake, and in my case, 1,959 years, and in another case, well, different. So the Bible tells you each in his own order. Now, whether this order was pre-determined…for he destined us in love. That’s what we are told in Ephesians, “He destined us in love to be his sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will.” Well, the same God that dreams in me is the God that dreams in… |
544718 |
| 1968-12-16 [exact/certain/final] |
A Prophecy |
The God that dreamed in me is the same God that dreams in you. Was it really an order that I could not have awakened before 1959? I do not know. I only know that was the year in which God awoke in me, yet I did not know I had fallen asleep in that skull. But when I emerged, the symbolism recorded as revealing the birth of God surrounded me. That was the moment God awoke and was born into a higher region of his being. Having identified himself with the one he loved, that one was raised and born as God. |
535546 |
| 1969-01-06 [exact/certain/final] |
The Mystery of Imagination |
And so, some here this night you didn’t seek him but you’ve been exposed to him. You may not accept it. You may go out and think that’s blasphemy what that man said tonight, because it’s in conflict with your concept of what you think it ought to be. But I tell you from experience. I am not speculating, I am not theorizing, for I’m telling you I know what I know from experience. I have experienced the entire drama as recorded in scripture concerning Jesus Christ, from the resurrection, through the birth, up to the very descent of the dove, the grand baptism. So everything recorded and all the… |
539387 |
| 1969-01-13 [exact/probable/final] |
The Mystery of Forgiveness |
If the whole vast world rose tonight and told me that what I am saying is misleading and that I must no longer talk about it, well, how could I ignore what has happened? I could no more deny what has happened to me than I could the simplest evidence of my senses, I couldn’t. I know what I had for dinner tonight, but that is not as graphic in my mind’s eye as the unfolding of scripture within me. That happened back in 1929, but here in 1959 the dramatic scenes began to unfold. In the short interval of 1,260 days they all unfolded. They are more indelibly impressed upon my mind than yesterday’s… |
551352 |
| 1969-01-20 [exact/certain/final] |
Eschatology, the Doctrine of the Mind |
If you will read the Book of John - which differs somewhat from the synoptics, you will discover that John pinpoints the day the vision will occur, stating that the birth, followed by the resurrection, will take place between 6:00 P.M. on Sunday and 6:00 P.M. on Monday. That is when it happened in me. I went to bed on Sunday evening about 11:00 P.M. and awoke, was born from above, and resurrected at 4:00 A.M. on Monday morning. You will follow the same pattern. Having entered the world before the coming of Jehovah, you entered the world from B.C. And when it happens your world turns into the… |
552009 |
| 1969-01-20 [exact/certain/final] |
The Mystery of Eschatology |
Now a strange thing…here, if you read the Book of John…and it differs somewhat from the synoptics…John pinpoints the very day of the week on which it will happen. He pinpointed, if you know scripture, that it will happen between six PM on Sunday and six PM on Monday when the birth will take place. Well, the birth is followed (really preceded) by the resurrection. They take place the same night. Well, it happened that way with me. It was the wee hours, four in the morning on Monday. I went to bed on Sunday night about eleven and here in the wee hours of the morning—which is Sunday night but… |
544372 |
| 1969-01-20 [exact/certain/final] |
The Mystery of Eschatology |
Can you imagine yourself actually in the presence of the child bearing witness? “Unto us a child is born.” The child is there and you know exactly what happened to you and how you came out like one from a womb, but it was your skull. Then, five months later, “A son is given.” They’re two different events. So this 9th of Isaiah , “Unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given” are two entirely different. The son is given to bear witness to my fatherhood; the child is there to bear witness to my birth. I am the one born and a child is simply the symbol of birth. It’s an infant wrapped in… |
544389 |
| 1969-01-24 [exact/probable/final] |
The Mystery of Election |
So when you wake in the grave, which is your own skull, Christ awoke, for you are he. When one speaks of Christ, they think of the third-person; when they address him in prayer, they think of a second-person. Christ is not a third or a second-person; he must be thought of in the first-person. Only when you experience him in the first-person…for I know, in my own case, I awoke. It wasn’t another that I saw, I awoke. I was raised. I, myself, was resurrected in a tomb—the same tomb in which Christ was buried, this universal diffused being in all the tombs of the world, our skulls. When I emerged… |
548592 |
| 1969-01-27 [exact/probable/final] |
The Mystery of Inspiration |
So the inspired Word of God comes to certain individuals…eventually to everyone. But as it unfolds, it comes to certain ones, for he is re-building his temple. The temple was purposely shattered. And now instead of having dead stones, we become living stones in the temple of God, and that is the body of God. The body of God is not any church, as the churches talk about. They speak of the church as the body of God; hasn’t a thing to do with the church. For the temple of God is not made with human hands; it is made of the redeemed. Everyone who has awakened becomes a living stone in the body of… |
555167 |
| 1969-02-24 [exact/certain/final] |
God Became Man |
The crucifixion did not take place in the year 1 A.D., but in the beginning of time. The Bible begins, “In the beginning God.” The word translated God is Elohim, which is a compound unity of one made of many. We are the gods who created the heavens and the earth. Many years ago I relived that event by fulfilling the 42nd Psalm. Taken chronologically, this psalm appears to have happened in 1000 B.C., yet I remember when I became man. Hearing a voice in the depths of my soul proclaim I am God in the act of waking, I began to whirl in space and time. Then I felt myself being sucked into this… |
539519 |
| 1969-02-24 [exact/certain/final] |
God Became Man |
One hundred and thirty-nine days after I awoke and rose from my tomb, God’s only begotten son, David, revealed me as his father. I did not become the Father at that moment; I was always the Father, but came down and took upon myself the cross that is man, to raise him to the level of Fatherhood. |
539520 |
| 1969-02-28 [exact/probable/final] |
Believe in Him |
This is exactly what I did. I pulled myself right out of myself. |
532796 |
| 1969-03-10 [exact/certain/final] |
You Can Never Outgrow I AM |
It was “I” who awoke and rose in that tomb; no one else was there. I had no help getting out; “I” pushed the stone away myself. And when I looked back to see that out of which I came, I saw the three witnesses as recorded in Genesis. It is said that Abraham (the state of faith in which I started) was seated by the door of his tent in the heat of the day when the three men appeared. As one spoke concerning the child, Abraham knew he was the Lord. That child is Isaac, which means, “he laughs.” I found that promised child. Like Simeon, I took that promised child in my arms and he laughed. |
539554 |
| 1969-03-14 [exact/certain/final] |
The Bible's Mystery |
My ministry began thirty years later with my resurrection, followed by my birth from above. Then, fulfilling the prophecy of Zechariah, I discovered the eternal prince who called me Father and revealed me as the King. On that day I, the Lord, became king over all the world as I became one with the only God and Father of all. |
552597 |
| 1969-03-24 [exact/certain/final] |
God's Plan of Redemption |
When God awoke within me, there were not two of us, only one I am. I am he who had the experience. I am he who pushed that stone away and came out of my tomb. I am he who held the child in my arms and heard God’s son call me father. I am he who experienced the complete severance when my body was torn from top to bottom. And when the dove descended and smothered me with love, I am he who experienced it. |
552510 |
| 1969-03-24 [exact/certain/final] |
God's Plan of Redemption |
God died in the most literal sense of the word by forgetting that he was the one who created the universe. He had to do it in order to become you, the created. His love for you was so great he left all to cleave to, and become one with, you. And when his work is complete, God, now individualized, will awaken. I know, for I awoke to find myself completely entombed where the Word - called the seed of God - fell. A seed must fall into the earth and die in order to be made alive, for unless it does it remains alone; but if it does, it bears much fruit. God’s fruit is to individually awaken as God… |
552522 |
| 1969-03-24 [exact/certain/final] |
God's Plan of Redemption |
Jesus Christ is not some historical being on the outside. He became flesh and dwells in us. Ten years ago this coming July, he who so loved me - his creation - took upon himself all of my afflictions, awoke in me, and when he did he wasn’t another. Imagination is the light which is the life of every man. |
552526 |
| 1969-04-07 [exact/certain/final] |
Outer World Responds to Imaginal Acts |
I look back at that which I occupied for 6,000 years and it is ghastly pale. It’s the linen clothes that my mother wove in her womb. And then I depart, leaving, and the body expels that which is the napkin. And I come out, and others come to find me. They find only the discarded body and they find now the thing which symbolizes my birth. It’s only a symbol of my birth from above. Having had the experience I can tell you exactly how it happened. You start in the skull and you end in the skull…and the whole drama begins in man. The drama is all about God and there is nothing but God. It is God… |
547341 |
| 1969-04-11 [exact/certain/final] |
The Perfect Image |
Having purposely imposed this limitation upon myself, I felt as though I were speaking to another, making requests of him and thanking him for their fulfillment. Now I have no sense of another. I feel only as the one who formed me into his likeness; for when I awoke He and I were not two any more, but one. |
539682 |
| 1969-04-18 [exact/certain/final] |
Forgiveness and the Immortal Eyes |
And soon after your resurrection, which is the same night, you are born from above. And then days later, to be exact 139 days later, you find the Father. Then 123 days later comes the splitting of the curtain of the temple, which is your own body…and there you see what the lady saw, that liquid, molten gold. And then like a serpent…as you fuse with that gold you move up like a serpent back into your own skull, which is heaven (). Then 998 days later the dove descends upon you, because the whole thing is over and here the Spirit of the Most High has rested upon you (). Then you can say, as it… |
547838 |
| 1969-05-02 [exact/certain/preferred] |
One Being Fell Containing All |
It is my purpose to tell you how to imitate him. You can’t imitate it as someone on the stage; you can only imitate it by hearing what took place and then believing it. So then I will tell you how it takes place. As he said, “How can I believe in him that I have not known, and how can I know of him unless there be a preacher, and how can there be a preacher unless he is sent?” . And so, if he is sent then it is through faith that I can believe. I can’t believe otherwise, for I haven’t seen him and I haven’t heard him, but if you tell me that you came from him, well then, I will simply accept… |
539941 |
| 1969-05-02 [exact/certain/preferred] |
One Being Fell Containing All |
Paul found himself, as I found myself, awakening within the grave. I had no idea until that moment in time on the 20th day of July of 1959 that I was buried in my own skull…as you are buried in your own skull and you don’t know it. But I tell you I prophesy for you. It may happen tonight and I hope it does. But it comes suddenly, unexpectedly. It comes upon you like a storm wind and you are awakened within yourself to find yourself buried, entombed in your skull. Then you emerge from it, you come out of that skull, and that is your birth from above. Which we are told in the Book of John is… |
539948 |
| 1969-05-02 [exact/certain/preferred] |
One Being Fell Containing All |
So here in this wonderful story of scripture, which is completely misunderstood, you and I are called upon to hear a story from one who actually was sent. I tell you that I was sent. Now how can there be a preacher unless he is sent? Well, the preachers who are preaching today are not sent. They have not yet been awakened, so they are giving you all kinds of stories concerning the interpretation of scripture. I am not. Prior to 1959 I would have, but since 1959 I can’t, for I was called and sent. Only one who was called and incorporated into the body of God is ever sent. And when you are… |
539964 |
| 1969-05-05 [exact/probable/final] |
The Wisdom, Power, and Glory Buried in Us |
My dear, from the time I was a little boy I had things I could not understand, so I can’t go back to that. But I had mystical or psychic experiences that I did not understand that scared me to death. My one great one that began it all was when I was taken into the divine assembly and brought before the risen Lord. I’ve told you that story and I have written it. Well, that happened in 1929, in the summer of ’29. Thirty years later began the unfolding of these mighty acts of God within me: the resurrection and the birth, the discovery of the fatherhood of God, the splitting of the curtain of… |
547079 |
| 1969-05-06 [exact/certain/preferred] |
The Battle of Armageddon |
When he finds it, he finds it in you. And the story of Jesus is a pattern by which he unfolds. He first rises in you, not as another; when he awoke in me, I awoke. It wasn’t another and I was alone in my skull. Not a thing in that skull but myself, and I knew the skull was sealed like a tomb. I also knew that it was a tomb…this innate wisdom that you have. You are not only aware that you are in your skull but you’re also aware of the fact your skull is a tomb. That’s Golgotha and that’s where you were placed. You don’t remember when you were placed there, you don’t remember when you entered… |
540046 |
| 1969-05-16 [exact/probable/final] |
The Lord's Anointed |
You cannot miss it. When you see him you could never in eternity forget it, because you know what you are intended to find before you set sail; and when it happens it’s like memory returning. No one tells you he is David. You know it, as no one need tell you the name of your son. If you’ve known your son and lived with your son and he was lost, when you found your son he doesn’t ask you who you are…my son….You know that you found your son. “For this my son was dead and he’s alive again. He was lost and he’s found”. And so, David when you meet him…the thrill of meeting David! It comes with a… |
529462 |
| 1969-05-23 [exact/certain/final] |
Revelation of the Word Within |
So there will always be a circle who are at the point of breaking through with the seed within man, the Word of God, erupting. As it erupts, the very first of the events is resurrection, and that’s the cornerstone of the entire mystery. The sleeper awakes. Well, who is the sleeper?—God. “Rouse thyself! Why sleepest thou, O Lord?” . And so, the Lord awakes. Well, what is his name?—I am. Well, who at that moment when it happened to you, who did you feel awakening? I felt myself…I am the one who awoke to find myself completely alone, because God is one. There is no other…it was God who awoke.… |
540140 |
| 1969-06-09 [exact/probable/final] |
Pursue Truth with Ceaseless Questioning |
Then came that day in my experience when I proved that I am the resurrection; because I felt myself resurrecting within the grave of my own skull, and that was proof of that statement in scripture that I am. Well, who resurrected? I did. Well, who is resurrecting?—I am. “I am the resurrection”; I have proved that. I have proved this then that I am the resurrection before I proved that I am the Father. He said, “I am the Father”…I didn’t know that. How could I prove that I am the Father? Suddenly, after having proved I am the resurrection then I prove by the Son who called me Father that I am… |
543012 |
| 1969-06-09 [exact/certain/final] |
The First Principle |
After proving to myself that I am the life of a state, I questioned the statement: “I am the resurrection.” Then came the day when I felt myself resurrect within the grave of my own skull. I proved that I am the Father when my son came in the Spirit and called me “Father.” I discovered that I am the one who was sacrificed, for – knowing I am the Father – my spiritual body was split from top to bottom. Then I discovered that I was the one upon whom the Holy Spirit descended in bodily form as a dove. These things I now know to be true from experience, therefore I speak with authority. |
540245 |
| 1969-06-13 [exact/certain/final] |
God's Mystery of Christ |
But this is the most fantastic, incredible story that man could ever accept. How can he believe that a man becomes his own father’s father? And that’s exactly how the Book of Matthew begins: “The book of the genealogy of Jesus Christ, the son of David, the son of Abraham.” Then he turns the entire thing around, because the whole Bible is based upon a peculiar reversal of order: the second becomes the first all through the Bible, down to the very end. So here, I find myself coming out of humanity. Humanity congeals and forms itself into a single being and stands before me and calls me Father.… |
545779 |
| 1969-06-13 [exact/certain/final] |
God's Mystery of Christ |
Well, Paul uses the word mystery no less than twenty times in his letters. He insists that it is a mystery and asks people to listen carefully or to read his letters carefully. A mystery is really by definition a sacred secret. That’s what it really is, a sacred secret. But he will let us into the secret as he was let into it: “When it pleased God to reveal his Son in me, I then communed not with flesh and blood” . So a mystery…my birth from above was prior to the event a mystery to me. I never heard anyone describe it. It came suddenly and it was an awful shock. My resurrection was to me a… |
545799 |
| 1969-06-16 [exact/probable/final] |
The I in Me Is God Himself |
The little child, as we are told in the 8th chapter of Proverbs, “In the very beginning when he created the universe I was beside him as a little child. I was daily his delight, rejoicing before him always. He who finds me finds life; he who misses me injures himself; he who hates me loves death.” There are those who can’t stand this thought and they are in love with this world and this is the world of death. So here in this world of ours we start with “I am”…that’s God, that’s consciousness. When I begin to view consciousness I must see the two relationships. First, being, pure being,… |
543602 |
| 1969-06-16 [exact/certain/final] |
All That Is Divine |
When you view consciousness you must see the two relationships: the pure, unconditioned I AM, and the conditioned I AM. Now conditioned, I am aware of being Neville, a speaker and teacher. Another condition placed upon pure awareness is that of a banker, a lawyer, or that of a thief. These are all conditioned states of being the little child has cast you into, and you are playing your part perfectly. You do not see that little child until the end of the play, at which time you will hold that infant in your arms and your intense feeling towards him will come forward into speech. In my own case… |
540319 |
| 1969-06-16 [exact/probable/final] |
The I in Me Is God Himself |
That should be obvious to you. Here we have a revelation through men conditioned to receive an inner voice and hear an inner voice. They did not understand what they heard as told us in the Old Testament. Daniel said, “I heard but I did not understand,” and then the voice said to him, “Close the book; seal the book, Daniel, until the end. You don’t understand it, but write it carefully and don’t try to change it.” “Do not add to my words…put it down just as you heard it.” So he recorded what he heard. All the Old Testament begins, “And this is the vision of Isaiah, this is the vision of… |
543640 |
| 1969-07-16 [exact/certain/preferred] |
Pre-Existence |
And all of the imagery of Scripture now surrounds you. Here the “wise men” . . normal men as you are, seated where there is the body out of which you came, and these three are the witnesses of your “birth.” They can’t see you because you are now spirit, but they know who was born. And one will say . . calling you by name . . in my case they say, “It is Neville’s child.” They find a little infant wrapped in swaddling clothes lying on the floor; and they announce whose child it is. In my case, one of them said, “It is Neville’s baby.” The other two, in the most incredible voices, asked: “How… |
540623 |
| 1969-07-18 [exact/probable/final] |
Eschatology |
So this is the plan, and the only Christ is that Christ, not a single little being that was born of a woman who didn’t know a man. They will repeatedly say, “I must take on the weaknesses of the flesh and all the limitations of that.” If I came in here and my earthly father didn’t know my earthly mother, that was something entirely different — I can’t teach anyone what I haven’t experienced. I had to be conceived, and so I came in just as every child, and at the end of the journey I had to awaken within my own skull, and then experienced the entire story of Jesus in the first-person-singular… |
553348 |
| 1969-09-15 [exact/certain/final] |
Imagination's Power |
The pattern? Well, the New Testament begins not as it is said with the birth…although it is written that way…not in the Book of John, in the Book of Luke and Matthew. Mark does not begin it with the birth and neither does John. But I’ll tell you the pattern: the pattern begins with the resurrection. You resurrect within your own skull; that’s where you’re buried. God is buried in man and the burial ground is his skull, the skull of man. It’s called Golgotha in scripture, which means “skull.” You will awaken one day to discover that you’ve been a long, long time asleep. Someone who placed you… |
544565 |
| 1969-09-19 [exact/probable/final] |
The Dreamer |
Nan, my dear, I can’t tell you. But don’t discount them…there were three. In my case, there were three men…the caravan has taken three. Three is a symbol of resurrection. The actual objects like myrrh, frankincense, they are not in themselves important, but the number three is important. For on the third day the earth rose up out of the deep. On the third day he rose from the grave. Not three days as we measure time, but three is significant in the sense it is significant of resurrection. So they were taking the resurrection into Egypt. But what the actual things called myrrh and gum and… |
543337 |
| 1969-09-19 [exact/probable/final] |
The Dreamer |
Two births. But the death is not to the one who seemingly dies; it’s only to those who observe his departure. If I drop now, to you I’ve died but to myself I have not. Therefore, a man who has not been born from above departs this world, or any section of time, and is instantly restored to life in the dream. So that he isn’t born again; he’s restored. All things are restored; nothing passes away, because the gods restore it all by the seed of contemplative thought. The tree we cut down and burn it, and all things are cut down. The little lamb is slain by the knife, but by the seed of… |
543343 |
| 1969-09-26 [exact/certain/preferred] |
Biblical Language |
If I speak of him I am implying the existence of two; but when I say, “I am,” I am speaking of only one. So Christ becomes one with me by becoming my very self. But I will not know that I am he until I have experienced everything scripture tells me only happened to him. My rebirth is the result of the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, for it is said that he rose from the same grave in which he was buried. Since there is only one skull, only one grave, and I awoke within my skull to discover I am alone, am I not the one who lay down there to sleep? If asked who was having this… |
540837 |
| 1969-10-03 [exact/certain/preferred] |
The J, E, and P Manuscripts |
The image of this night that begins your awakening…I fell asleep in the normal, normal manner that I have done over the years, not expecting anything, and then came a dream. Here I am in the most glorious city. No building was higher than three or four stories…certainly not more than four…a walk-up, no need of any contraption to take me up. The sidewalks were wider than any streets we have in the city. There is no street, no boulevard as wide as the sidewalks. Just imagine how wide the streets! And they were filled with boys and girls…I mean young boys, young girls, not even quite teenagers,… |
540869 |
| 1969-10-13 [exact/certain/final] |
The State of Paul: The Free Man |
And what was the experience? I felt myself waking from a sleep. You mean you were waking from a sleep? Yes, something unlike any other sleep I’ve ever had. I began to wake from a sleep, and to find myself in a holy sepulcher, and it was my skull. That was the place where I was born but buried, and that’s the place where I was born. I came out of it as I formerly came out of my mother’s womb, but this time it was different. I came out without loss of identity, knowing exactly who I am. Then the symbol of my birth presented itself before me, and then everything as recorded in scripture I have… |
544592 |
| 1969-10-19 [exact/probable/final] |
I AM the Cause |
These revelations do not come in the order the prophets recorded them (or some scribe changed); but the names are true and are revealed in perfect order. The first name given to you when you fell asleep was “El Shaddai” which means “God Almighty, or Mighty God”. But one day you will awaken! Now completely individualized, you will feel a vibration so great you will think you are going to die; but far from dying, the vibration will awaken you from your long, long sleep. You will awaken within yourself to discover that you have been entombed there for unnumbered centuries. You may not know how… |
531436 |
| 1969-10-25 [exact/probable/final] |
Paul's Prayer Interpreted |
And thirty years later you bring forth the Son, which is your Self, but the Son is going to prove in the not-distant future that he is the Father, for five months later . . in my own case 139 days later . . you discover you are God the Father, because His Son stands before you and calls you, Father. And you know without any uncertainty that he is your son, and you also know that he knows you are his father. |
551311 |
| 1969-10-31 [exact/certain/final] |
Fundamental Revelation: Jesus Christ in Us |
What is a trumpet? The word trumpet in scripture, you look it up, it simply means “a vibration.” But may I tell you, it is the most unusual vibration that you have ever felt. Why, I’ve heard numberless vibrations in the world as you have. You go to a concert and everything you hear is a vibration, all synchronized into a harmony. But they’re all vibrations, the piano, the violin, the cello, everything is a vibration. But this is a peculiar vibration. It is something that is centered in your head and you can’t arrest it, you can’t stop it, and it goes on until finally you awake. And you awake… |
541146 |
| 1969-11-03 [exact/certain/preferred] |
A Riddle |
Yes. “I am Mary and birth to God must give if I in blessedness for now and evermore would live.” Think of humanity as feminine…the soul of man…think upon it as the bride of the Lord: “My Maker is my husband” as told us in Isaiah. Then he will cleave to me, leaving all, and become one with me. He leaves all and cleaves to his wife and they become one flesh. So I am Mary. I said that one night here, oh, about two years ago, and one took issue with me and he’s never returned. Perfectly all right. He will wake one day and he will know that he is Mary and he has to bring forth the Christ child.… |
539925 |
| 1969-11-14 [exact/certain/final] |
Experience the Mystery of Christ |
So he said, “I am the truth.” Well, if there is an inmost center in us all wherein truth abides in fullness and here is one called Jesus Christ saying “I am the truth,” and that is the center in me, then where is he? The only one that can resurrect is Jesus Christ and he’s in me. He resurrects in me and breaks the shell, and then he comes out. As he comes out, I am set free, free as the wind, and I gradually discover who I really am. |
541244 |
| 1969-11-14 [exact/certain/final] |
Experience the Mystery of Christ |
It’s a wonderful vision for her to have: “For unless I die, thou canst not live; but if I die I shall arise again and thou with me. Wouldest thou love one who had never died for thee, or ever die for one who had not died for thee? And if God dieth not for man and giveth not himself eternally for man, man could not exist.” So God dies. I am telling you I have awakened from the dream of life. I have been born from above and the only one who is born from above is God. And so God dies…it’s a perpetual dying…that all may live. So she saw it beautifully. I can’t congratulate her enough. Her vision… |
541261 |
| 1969-11-17 [exact/certain/final] |
Thy Words Were Found |
I know from my own experience having been born from above that the wind is correct and the water is false. You hear a wind and the wind is in your head, but it also comes from without, seemingly from without. You do not know whence it comes…you think it’s from this direction and you look over here. At the same time you’re looking there, you also feel it in your head. Then when the whole drama is over and the infant appears, then the wind disappears…so you cannot tell “whence it comes or whither it goes; so is every one who is born of the Spirit,” and not a thing to do with water. |
541291 |
| 1969-11-17 [exact/probable/final] |
Jeremiah's Discovery |
I know, however, from having been born from above, that the wind is correct and the water is false. I heard the wind. It was in my head, but seemed to come from without. I knew not whence it came and whither it went. So it is with everyone who is born of the spirit, and it hasn’t a thing to do with water. |
552075 |
| 1969-11-17 [exact/certain/final] |
Thy Words Were Found |
Well, my dear, I gave you tonight the words of God. I could give you no deeper than I gave you tonight: you are God. When you look into the mirror you see a lady and you say here is [...], and that’s the name you’ll answer to if I call you by it. But your name as told tonight is the Lord, God of hosts. Yet without loss of identity and though you are the Lord, God of hosts, you will respond to that name. You love the name. I respond to the name Neville. When I heard the heavenly chorus sing my praises when I was risen they called me by my name Neville. They said, “Neville is risen.” They didn… |
541326 |
| 1969-11-24 [exact/certain/final] |
All Dreams Proceed from God |
Well, when I was born from above, which came after my resurrection from the dead, for as we are told, we are born anew through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead to discover that the Jesus Christ is the Jesus Christ in us who is God himself. There was no one else who woke…but I woke…I felt myself waking from a dream, waking from a deep, deep sleep, and a waking that I’ve never experienced before. Suddenly I began to feel myself waking. It was a vibration, it was a storm, a terrific wind, all centered in my head and still coming seemingly from without. I found myself waking within… |
551521 |
| 1969-11-24 [exact/certain/final] |
All Dreams Proceed from God |
July 1959 in the city of San Francisco I had the experience of waking from a profound sleep all within my skull. That sleep was not twenty-four hours, that was an eon, an age. There are two ages: this age where men appear in this world not knowing that they are dreaming. They have no idea that God within them is dreaming the dream of life, and they’re actually experiencing motion and all these things in the world, violence, everything. They are totally unaware that the dreamer in them is sound asleep and the dreamer is God, as told us in the 44th Psalm, “Rouse thyself! Why sleepest thou, O… |
551524 |
| 1969-11-24 [exact/certain/final] |
All Dreams Proceed from God |
For, in ’54 I could not understand what I heard, but in ’59 I knew that I awoke from a profound dream. And here, I’m awaking not on my bed, I’m awaking in my skull. I am alone. I come out of my skull to find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes and the witnesses to the event are seeing a babe wrapped in swaddling clothes. They know it is my child, but they can’t see me because I am born of the Spirit. They are of the flesh; they are not yet born of the Spirit. What is born of the flesh is flesh and what is born of the Spirit is Spirit. And so, I was born of the Spirit, so how could they see… |
551540 |
| 1969-12-01 [exact/certain/final] |
The Heart of the Dreamer |
I promise you: the day will come when the divine breath will breathe over you and you will awaken in your immortal tomb. You, too, will leave that tomb to hold the infant child in your arms. He will be the symbol of your return, revealing the end of your horrors. Although you are then God the Father, you will not discover this for yourself until one hundred and thirty-nine days later, when God’s son, David, will reveal your true identity. |
541397 |
| 1969-12-01 [exact/certain/final] |
The Heart of the Dreamer |
I know that the sensation of resurrection is one of waking. I actually awoke and wondered how long I had been there and who put me there. Blake explained it so beautifully in his poem, “The Mental Traveler.” “I traveled thro’ a Land of Men A Land of Men and Women too And heard and saw such dreadful things As cold Earth wanderers never knew For there the Babe is born in joy That was begotten in dire woe Just as we reap in joy the fruit Which we in bitter tears did sow And if the Babe is born a Boy He’s given to a Woman Old Who nails him down upon a rock Catches his shrieks in cups of gold.” |
541421 |
| 1969-12-12 [exact/probable/final] |
The Mystery of Christmas |
Then I awoke within my skull. I had no idea that I was asleep within my skull. I always thought I slept on my bed, and that I was fully awake, and I was wearing a body. That night I discovered I had been asleep these unnumbered years in my skull. When I awoke, the skull was completely sealed. Yet I had an innate knowledge what to do and I pushed the base of my skull and something gave…a hole opened. I squeezed myself out. Just as a child comes out of its mother’s womb, I came out of that tomb. The tomb was the womb of God where God himself had entered. I saw no one, there was no companion. I… |
539335 |
| 1970 [exact/probable/preferred] |
Spiritually Known |
Then years later, not so many years later, came the actual birth. That was a forerunner. It was telling me something which at the moment I didn’t quite understand. I was amazed that I had this power, but I didn’t realize what that power, which was returning to me, was leading up to. I hadn’t the slightest idea what it indicated. I could only recall what I experienced. |
554421 |
| 1970 [exact/probable/preferred] |
Spiritually Known |
Now, to the whole vast world it seems insane — you stopped it, and you are on the verge of birth, from about after you have stopped, dying. For this happened to me before my experience in 1959. This happened to me back in the ’40s in New York City, when suddenly I stopped time. And that night I told my friend how I stopped time. What did they think? Now, I know I have been funny in the past and strange, but this one really takes the cake. But I am telling you, I stopped it, and I have to share it with everyone after I have the experience. I can’t wait for the next moment to tell it. I can… |
554443 |
| 1970 [exact/probable/preferred] |
Spiritually Known |
For in my own case, it was not the night. It was an adumbration. It was a foreshadowing of that night. For that night did not come in my own case until the 20th of July, 1959. This came in the ’40s. This peculiar, innate knowledge that I could arrest within me a power. |
554448 |
| 1970-06-01 [exact/certain/final] |
Self-Abandonment |
For I tell you, when you come back after the “birth from above,” and find yourself Spirit, I mean Spirit, but more real than anything in the whole vast world all put together, but you are Spirit, and you are more real than any object in space or all the objects in space. But to come down prior to the birth is to forget yourself as Spirit. God is Spirit, and you do it after this birth without loss of identity. That’s the lovely part about it: when you come back into the world and pick up the garment that is asleep on the bed, and quite normally bathe it and shave it and feed it and do all the… |
526964 |
| 1970-06-26 [exact/certain/final] |
The Promise Explained |
Well, I will tell you now from my own experience, which duplicates that recorded in Scripture. You could not find a more beautiful recording than that which I have just repeated for you from the 3rd chapter of John. It is accurate. It is perfect. When he uses the word wind, some translators said he should have used the word spirit; but the words spirit and wind are identical, both in Hebrew and in Greek – the same word. But he used the right word, for when it happens in you, you think only in terms of wind. When you are born from above, and the child is placed in your hand – this wonderful… |
541679 |
| 1970-06-26 [exact/certain/final] |
The Promise Explained |
When I awoke to find myself completely sealed, I had an intuitive knowledge – as you are told, “The one who wakes is the wisdom of God, and he is the power of God,” for that’s how Christ is defined in Scripture: “the power of God and the wisdom of God.” And I knew exactly what to do. I would push the base of the skull. May I tell you, all things being relative, I stood within my skull. This is a little tiny thing. How could Neville, 5’ 11”, stand in a skull? I stood in my skull! It is the Immortal Skull – the Immortal Head. I stood in it just like I stand here on the stage; and I went to the… |
541686 |
| 1970-06-26 [exact/certain/final] |
The Promise Explained |
Then the three witnesses, as told us in the book of Genesis – they then stand before – you didn’t see them approaching – they stand before Abraham, to whom the promise was made. Now I am playing the part of Abraham, for here the promise is made, and these three witnesses sent from God, and one is not only the spokesman of God, it is God Himself! As he looks up, he doesn’t see them approaching. There they are! I looked and I didn’t see these three men approaching. There they sat where the body was, and they are discussing. And in Scripture, whenever vision breaks into sound – into speech, the… |
541687 |
| 1970-06-26 [exact/certain/final] |
The Promise Explained |
For, back in 1929 I was sent to teach it. I didn’t get underway until 1938, but I was sent in 1929. It seemed almost like a preparation preceded that moment of courage to take the platform and tell it. And then it grew and grew and grew until finally in ’59, then the whole drama of the Gospel unfolded within me in a first-person, singular, present-tense series of experiences. So, I ask you tonight to believe me. I have not enlarged it. I have not exaggerated it; I have told you exactly as it happened in me. It’s identical with the story as told in Scripture; and so when they use these words… |
541702 |
| 1970-06-26 [exact/certain/final] |
The Promise Explained |
But the LORD Himself enters Death’s door with those who enter, and He lays down in the grave with those who enter; and He shares with them their visions of Eternity until they awake and see the linen clothes lying which the females had woven for them. My mother, a female – she wove this linen cloth for me, this garment of flesh and blood; and when I awoke, I saw it. That’s what the females had woven for me. But I awoke within the sepulcher where the Father had entered with me and shared my visions of Eternity with me until I awoke. And then, as I awoke, He began to unveil Himself, and… |
541713 |
| 1970-07-01 [exact/doubtful/preferred] |
The Law of Identical Harvest |
Next Monday (July 20th) will be my eleventh birthday of my “birth from above.” Eleven years ago the 20th of July, I was “born from above” in this City in the Sir Francis Drake Hotel. It’s true. The story is perfectly true as you read it in the Gospel concerning Jesus Christ. He is buried in the holy sepulcher, which is the skull of man. One day, man awakes within his skull to find himself completely sealed, and he knows it’s a sepulcher. There he is, completely sealed. But he is the Wisdom of God and the Power of God, as Christ is defined in the story of the Bible. Because you are the Power… |
541749 |
| 1970-07-01 [exact/doubtful/preferred] |
The Law of Identical Harvest |
The day that you really awake – what a shock. Because if you tell the whole vast world that they are sound asleep, they won’t believe it. If I tell the whole vast world tonight – “You are sound, sound asleep, and the Dreamer in you is dreaming the dream, and the Dreamer is God,” – they would think I’m insane. I would have told anyone who told me that, that they were insane too, until the day it happened to me. And when I, the Dreamer, awoke within my skull, I wondered, Who put me here? How long have I been here? And, here, all along, I had been dreaming, and the dream seemed so objectively… |
541757 |
| 1970-07-07 [exact/certain/final] |
The Morning Star |
Well, He awoke within me, and He was in the tomb of my skull, but he wasn’t another . . He was myself. Then, when He awoke within me and I came out, a hundred and thirty-nine days later His son stands before me, and here His son calls me, “Father,” and I know he is my son. I also know his name is David. |
541792 |
| 1970-07-07 [exact/certain/final] |
The Morning Star |
When it happened to me, my three brothers, my eldest brother, Cecil, my second brother, Victor, and my brother Lawrence, my third brother . . they were in Barbados, thousands of miles away from here . . at least five thousand, when this happened to me in this City eleven years ago. |
541805 |
| 1970-07-07 [exact/certain/final] |
The Morning Star |
So, they came and they were visible to me, but I was invisible to them. They could speak of me and they knew the sign that represented my birth, although to them . . or to two of them, my brothers Cecil and Victor, they thought it the most incredible thing in the world, and they asked, “How can Neville have a baby?” But my brother Lawrence, who found the infant, he did not question it, and he presented the facts . . he presented the child. Without argument, he simply lifted the babe and placed it on the bed. Then I lifted that child, and I said, “How is my sweetheart?” and the child broke… |
541807 |
| 1970-07-07 [exact/certain/final] |
The Morning Star |
Eleven years ago this thing happened, but I still exist in this body, although I live in my imagination. That is the real You. It sleeps in man, and it dreams in man, and one day it will wake as that man in whom it now dreams . . not you and God . . you as God! For His Son is going to call you, “Father,” and there will be no uncertainty in your mind as to who that son is, and who you are relative to that Son. I can say this boldly because I know it is going to come true to everyone in the world. Whether one is trained not to believe it, I don’t care. Eventually they will believe it because… |
541810 |
| 1970-07-14 [exact/certain/final] |
What Is Truth |
Well, the truth to which I bear witness cannot be otherwise. It is revealed truth; and revealed truth cannot be logically proven. How on earth can I prove to anyone that I have been born in a way that man normally is not born? How can I prove to anyone that I was born from my skull, and yet the body that now stands before you was born from my mother’s womb, and the one that is now speaking to you is not the one who was born from my mother’s womb? Something else happened in me in 1959 in this City – eleven years ago this coming Monday – where I was born from my own skull – “born from above,”… |
541822 |
| 1970-07-20 [exact/certain/final] |
The Secret of Imagining |
Today is the eleventh year since it happened to me right here in this city, right across the way at the hotel with the star at the top of the roof, the Sir Francis Drake, on the 20th day of July 1959. It was then that I, at 4:00 in the morning, felt within my head the most intense vibration, and I thought, this is a brain hemorrhage, and this is it. I knew nothing of the human form, and I thought I cannot possibly survive what I am feeling; so this must be what they call a massive brain hemorrhage. |
528679 |
| 1970-07-20 [exact/certain/final] |
The Secret of Imagining |
So eleven years ago on the 20th day of July, back in 1959 here in this city, that drama took place within me. So it is my birthday today in a spiritual sense. The little body that now stands before you, that came in the year 1905. |
528687 |
| 1970-07-24 [exact/certain/final] |
Untitled lecture |
This is all beautiful imagery. When I rose from the skull and came out from the “linen clothes,” -- and when I came out, the three brothers appeared, and there were the angels; they came from afar. If you took it literally, they were five thousand miles from here. If you took the story literally in the Bible, it would be almost impossible for the shepherds to have made the journey in the short interval between the appearance of the angel and the discovery of the child; so they came “in spirit,” as told in the 2a chapter of the Book of Luke when Simeon ““eame in the Spirit to the temple” , for… |
526133 |
| 1970-11 [circa/probable/final] |
Two Adams |
Now, this is the experience — I’m quite sure that all of you have had the feeling of this inner person, and you can get it, you will get it, before he’s born. But you must have had it — your head begins to feel like a pulsing something, and you see the radiance of that being, you see the golden liquid light, as though you’re golden all over, the whole thing becomes liquid light, and that’s you — a single awareness, and everything is gold, and everything is liquid, and it’s positive, and you can feel it long before you have the actual experience of being born from above. So don’t think you’ve… |
554732 |
| 1971 [exact/certain/final] |
Invisible |
This God of whom I speak is your own wonderful human imagination. When I stood mentally on the deck of a ship while seated physically in a hotel room in Barbados, and then with my imaginary hand, I held the rail. And I could feel the salt of the sea on the rail, as it always is. I could smell the rawness of the sea, and I could look back on an island, where I am seated on that island in my hotel room, yet I am looking at it from a ship at sea, all in my imagination. When they told me that I could not get out for months and months and months, for there was no room on the two ships servicing… |
550766 |
| 1971 [exact/certain/final] |
Invisible |
I fastened myself to it. Eventually, years later, the whole thing unfolded within me as to what really took place back in 1929, when I stood in the presence of the risen Lord. Well, now, who stood there? My body was in my hotel room in New York City, and yet I had the sensation of motion. I stood in the presence of love. I had to be taken in spirit. And He who stood before me seemed to me as real as anything in this world—more so. Infinite love is man—just man. And I can’t just cry and say—I will say He’s the Ancient of Days. You can’t put time on Him. He’s beyond time. He’s the Ancient of… |
550767 |
| 1971 [exact/probable/final] |
Who Is the Son of Man |
And you will know that you are God. I got a letter today from a friend of mine in L.A. I have been teaching this Law since 1938, but I did not know the Promise of God until twelve years ago in this City when it happened to me. From then on, all my lectures have been – I would say – geared toward the Promise. So he has been coming to my meetings twice a week in L.A. over the period of the last three years. As I have told them, and I tell you, before I depart this world physically I will appear to you as the Man I know myself to be, for He awoke within me. But he said to me in this letter which… |
528543 |
| 1971 [exact/probable/final] |
Who Is the Son of Man |
Not only this one, but hundreds must witness before I take off this garment for the last time in this world. For in this City twelve years ago I awoke from the dream of life. I awoke to find myself buried in my own skull, as every one is but he doesn’t know it. And I came out of that tomb – out of that sepulcher, the only sepulcher in which Jesus was ever buried, and Jesus is the Lord Himself! |
528544 |
| 1971 [exact/probable/final] |
The World Is a Stage |
And so here are the events. The very first one takes the story of Abraham — three men occur suddenly, and they come from nowhere to announce the birth of a child; that’s Abraham. It starts that way right after the resurrection. You are awakened within the tomb, and then three men, after you come out of it, and you’re born — from about three men — you don’t see them coming, they’re there suddenly. They come to witness the birth of that which they had foretold: “Is anything too hard for God?” And so here is a child you said you could not have, but there he is, wrapped in swaddling clothes, and… |
554868 |
| 1971 [exact/probable/final] |
Whom God Hath Afflicted |
And then, as it grows, I am feeding — I started feeding on the sap of human nature, until I continued and I grew. Then came that moment in time, twelve years ago this year, when it was time for the fruit to appear, and the fruit of pain. And then, of a period of twelve hundred and sixty days, except in appearance, and all that is by faith of my Father — then I explained that I knew the reality of the detachment, and the incision into humanity. |
554826 |
| 1971 [exact/probable/final] |
Nothing but God |
I am telling you what I know from experience. I am not theorizing, I am not speculating. Every child born of woman will one day awake. And when he awakes, he is the Lord Jesus Christ, because he will find David telling him before — a few months after living — and there is no uncertainty as to the relationship between David and himself. He will know that David is his son, and he is David’s father. And everything said in scripture concerning Jesus Christ, you are going to experience about yourself, and then know who you are. |
554177 |
| 1971 [exact/certain/final] |
Invisible |
It is 1929, all right, so I was 24. After 30, and finally, 54. It was when I was 54 years of age, in the city of San Francisco, that the whole thing began to erupt and unfold within me, because “He was about 30 years of age.” Now, John mentions it: “You know, Abraham?” “Why?” “You’re not yet 50.” Others put it, “Why, you are just about 50 years of age.” So he brings the age forward into the 50s. It doesn’t matter; it could happen, say, at 40. But then you’d have to go back to your time when you were 10, because it’s 30 years from the time of that regenerative act, which is a spiritual union… |
550792 |
| 1971 [exact/probable/preferred] |
Amnesia, the Sleep of Death |
And one day, suddenly, it will happen to you, and you will awaken, and when you awaken you are the Lord Jesus Christ, and you and I will be one, equal — no one telling you, “Ah, because he came before you in the awakening process, he preceded you in rank” — no, you can’t precede in rank because there is only one Lord Jesus Christ. So should you tonight awaken — and I awoke almost twelve years ago this coming July — I will not precede you in rank. No one will precede another — we’re all one. |
553133 |
| 1971 [exact/probable/final] |
Those Who Know Thy Name |
As I’ve been trying to tell you since it happened to me — it happened to me, or began, I would say, in 1959. The actual eruption began and came to its fulfillment on the first of January, 1963, when the dove descended and smothered me in affection, kissed me all over my face, my head, my neck, and remained upon me. So in that twelve hundred and sixty days, the whole drama unfolded in me. |
554583 |
| 1971-02-09 [exact/probable/final] |
Hear O Israel |
This earth-shaking thing has nothing to do with — all this is shadows on the outside. So if it shakes again tonight, it’s been shaking all day anyway; you must have felt it. But that has nothing to do with the real earth-shakes of the Bible. In that thirteenth chapter of Mark, it is telling us there will be earthquakes, there will be wars and rumors of wars — all these things must be — but don’t let anyone point you to someone outside of you and say that is Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ is the true identity of every child born. Let no one tell you “there he is,” or point to anyone. He is within,… |
553595 |
| 1971-03 [between/probable/preferred] |
The Mystery of Jesus Christ |
And yet it happened in me. The entire pattern gathered itself together in me, and in 1,260 days it unfolded in me. And here I am now, fully conscious of the fact that I am the father of David, that David mentioned in those 39 books. I am fully conscious of the fact that it was of me that Moses wrote when he spoke of the fiery serpent rising up upon the great staff. It was of me that they wrote when that dove returned to the ark, and then Noah stretched out his hand — pardon me — and took him into the ark. That I am that ark, containing all things. All things are contained within me, and I am… |
555579 |
| 1971-03 [between/probable/preferred] |
The Mystery of Jesus Christ |
It begins with your own awakening within your scarab — that’s how it begins. You’re completely sealed within that scarab when you awaken. But you have the innate wisdom to get out without the help of any being in this world. You know exactly what to do, where to push. And you know exactly what you know you should do. And you do. You come out. And then the wind, spoken of in Scripture, surrounds you — the unearthly wind that you read of, Pentecost, the storm wind that came to them all, that unearthly wind. And then the scene as described in Matthew and Luke concerning the birth of God… |
555587 |
| 1971-03-22 [exact/certain/final] |
The Law: Your Choice and Risk |
She is fantastic in hearing what she wants to hear in the world of Caesar; but may I tell you? You can go beyond that and take it into the world of Promise. If someone can say to you, “I have a lavish, steady, dependable income, consistent with integrity and mutual benefit,” and your ear is so sensitive that you can hear exactly what the other one says . . there are two witnesses now. “If two agree on earth about any request that they might make, that request will be granted by my Heavenly Father.” Well now, that’s a request. It doesn’t limit it there. Could I say to you, I have had the… |
530871 |
| 1971-03-26 [exact/certain/final] |
Initiative |
And that vision of the 42nd Psalm proves it beyond all doubt. When the voice said within me, “I laid myself down within you to sleep,” and as I slept, I dreamed a dream. I dreamed. I knew exactly what He was dreaming. He was dreaming of His “I.” And when He wakes, He is I, and I am He. Well, He woke within me on the morning of the 20th of July, 1959. That’s when He woke. And then, five months later, He revealed Himself as Father—not a Father out there, but in me as Father. And His son stood before me and called me “Father.” And then I knew what it meant: that one man must die, and save all… |
549065 |
| 1971-04-02 [exact/possible/preferred/estimated] |
Truth Seen Is Not Forgotten |
So where is He? I’ll tell you where He is. I’ll tell you how you’re going to find Him. Because “No one comes unto the Father except by me”—the pattern man. Not by me called “Neville,” but by me, the pattern. There’s only one pattern. There aren’t two. And that pattern is in you. And I’m going to tell you how it’s going to erupt. And the first grand eruption is when you begin to wake within your own skull. No one is present—just you. And then you come out of that skull. And that’s when you’re born—not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor the will of man, but of God. And God is the wind,… |
551051 |
| 1971-04-02 [exact/possible/preferred/estimated] |
Truth Seen Is Not Forgotten |
It must, because He sent me and His word, and He is called the Word of God. He only sends the Word. And I am the word that He sent. He embraced me—incorporated me into his body, which is infinite love—and then sent me. And therefore, I cannot return unto Him void. I must return unto Him, having completed the action that He sent me to perform. And so, having performed it, He has His own way now of spreading it. Just as a small, little company of 120 has overrun the earth—1,200 translations, including dialects—outnumbering all the best sellers put together year after year after year. And no one… |
551062 |
| 1971-04-09 [exact/certain/final] |
Standing Order |
So, as Blake said, “I do not consider either the wicked or the just to be in a supreme state, but to be, everyone of them, states of the sleep into which the soul may fall when it leaves Paradise following the serpent” – the symbol of wisdom, the symbol of knowledge. What knowledge? The knowledge of good and evil. So, we come into this world, and experience all the things that man can experience. Having gone through all, we come to the climax, and the climax is Resurrection. And may I tell you – it’s an actual, literal fact. I have experienced it. I have reached the end of the drama. It came… |
550181 |
| 1971-04-12 [exact/certain/final] |
The True Exodus |
so when he said among the mature i too impart a wisdom it is not the wisdom of this age or of the rulers of this age for they are doomed to pass away i impart a secret and hidden wisdom of god which god decreed before the ages for our glorification that’s what he imparted then he tells us in that same chapter the second chapter of first corinthians how it’s impossible for any person to know a man’s thoughts except the spirit of that man which dwells in him and therefore no one knows or comprehends the thoughts of god except the spirit of god and so he sends the spirit upon him so the real… |
556767 |
| 1971-04-12 [exact/certain/final] |
The True Exodus |
well i’m betraying i’m saying exactly how it happens it happens in the way that i have told you it will come suddenly upon you the holy spirit it will come like a storm ring and when it comes you will awake to find yourself in tune and then you will have the innate wisdom for christ is also the wisdom of god not only the power of god to move that stone where it will end up in your life then you will not be able to command that stone it was that was the seal break it by putting it from within and you will come out and you will find surrounding the witnesses to the great event that god… |
556770 |
| 1971-04-12 [exact/certain/final] |
The True Exodus |
and things comes the grand severance of your body from top to bottom and you’re a saint separating the event called resurrection from the ascension and you can come from it’s not only 40 days you can come to holding up it’s between my within the 30th of july 15 a fory. 14 a.m. and the Ascent took place on the 8th day of April of 1960. And that’s when one ascends, ascends into heaven. And the whole thing as you are told reverberates like thunder. And then comes the seal of approval on the 1260th day. And that is the descent of the Holy Spirit in bodily form as a dove. And here he rests upon… |
556772 |
| 1971-05-10 [exact/certain/final] |
Step into the Picture |
That’s how it works. I know from my own personal experience. I am sharing with you what I have experienced, both in the world of Caesar and in the world that is transcendent, something entirely different; so when I speak of being “born from above,” I am not theorizing. I am telling you exactly what happened to me. When I speak of meeting the Son of God who calls me, “Father,” I am telling you exactly what happened to me. When I tell you I ascended into Heaven like a fiery serpent, as told in Scripture, that’s exactly what happened to me. When the dove descended upon my hand, and then… |
549528 |
| 1971-05-28 [exact/certain/final] |
Experience Scripture |
At 4:00 in the morning, this strange, peculiar vibration began in my head . . something I had never felt before. And my interpretation of what I felt was, “This must be a massive hemorrhage.” I never had anything wrong with me physically of that nature, but I thought this must be what they call a “massive hemorrhage,” . . this must be it, because I couldn’t see how I could survive what I was feeling. My head began to vibrate, and the whole thing was simply like an enormous vibration. Instead of blowing my brains, I began to awake. But instead of waking on the bed as I thought I would, I awoke… |
548354 |
| 1971-06-04 [exact/possible/preferred] |
I AM the Reality Called Imagination |
And when I came back to New York City, friends of mine who knew me in the days when I never touched alcohol or smoking, — I never acquired smoking. I tried it, and I couldn’t seem to get it. Alcohol I got! Other things like, — well, you name it; all these things I do, I trust not to excess. Sometimes to excess, yes; but nevertheless, I did it, to discover it didn’t hurt me at all concerning my spiritual advancement. Yet they accused Him – the human imagination – of being a glutton and a drunkard and a friend of sinners, — one who loved the company of harlots and tax collectors and all the… |
549266 |
| 1971-06-07 [exact/certain/final] |
The Mystery Called Christ |
But when the day comes for the individual, no one knows of that hour, of that day; only the Father knows. No one knows but the Father. Let no one tell you that they can tell you when it’s going to happen. I know from my own experience it comes so suddenly. Little did I expect the night I went to bed in San Francisco that that night, on July the 20th, 1959, was the night. Nor on the 6th day of December of the same year, did I know that that night the Fatherhood of God would be revealed to me by His Son, who would call me “father.” Little did I know of the Ascent into Heaven on the morning of… |
542024 |
| 1971-06-11 [exact/certain/final] |
Jehovah's Messiah |
But you know every one is going to have the identical experience. You cannot boast, as you are told in First Corinthians, the 4th Chapter: “What have you that you did not receive? If you received it, where can you boast?” Of what could you boast? How could I stand before you and boast that I was embraced by God when it was a gift? God gives to Himself! So I can’t boast. I am not better than – if I precede you in a chronological order, I can’t precede you in importance, because we are all one. Every one is God! So if I preceded you – undoubtedly I have by a few years – it’s twelve years this… |
556433 |
| 1971-06-11 [exact/certain/final] |
Jehovah's Messiah |
So, in due time, thirty years later He unfolded Himself within me – in 1959. It took Him thirty years in preparation within me, like a gestation; and then suddenly He rose within me. Then I knew who He was. He came to me as one unknown, yet one who in the most wonderful, miraculous manner allowed me to experience Who-He-Is. When I experience who He is, I realized I am He. There were not two of us then – just one. I was all alone in the tomb wherein I was buried, and I didn’t realize throughout the years that I was the One spoken of in Scripture – that I was the buried one. |
556441 |
| 1971-06-18 [exact/probable/final] |
Who Paul Really Is |
I will tell you, all will make it, but all are not ready to make it. That was an adumbration. That was a foreshadowing of what is in store for everyone in this world. This is the mystery of life-through-death. Unless a seed, or the grain of wheat, falls into the ground and dies, it remains alone; but if it dies, it brings forth much. So, God dies . . literally dies. God became, as I AM, that I may be as He is. He can’t pretend that He is Neville. He has to actually become me, and therefore, in becoming me, He died. He is buried in my skull. That’s where He is buried. And the day will come, I… |
528999 |
| 1971-06-21 [exact/certain/final] |
The Secret of Imagination |
Well now, she knows better. She’s now in a world just like this. At least she learned the lesson of the Law. She didn’t learn the Promise, because when I spoke to her, I did not have the Promise. I had not realized it. You know the Promise because it only happened to me twelve years ago this coming month. So, those who knew me before have not heard from me the Promise. Those who have known me since, they know the Promise. |
547220 |
| 1971-06-25 [exact/probable/final] |
Purpose Revealed |
But in its place now are seated three witnesses to the event. In my own case, they were my three older brothers. As tradition has it, — it is not in Scripture; but tradition has it, the three who came to witness the birth were brothers: the king of Arabia, king of Persia, king of India; and they were brothers. In my case, they are not earthly kings in my family; they were simply my own wonderful, loving brothers. And there they sat, one at the head, one at one foot, and one at the other. The body was gone, but that’s where it would have been had it remained there: the head and the two feet.… |
531083 |
| 1971-06-25 [exact/probable/final] |
Purpose Revealed |
Now we come to that “second youth”; and he comes (in my case) a hundred and twenty-nine [129] days after the “birth from above.” An explosion in my head — the whole drama takes place in your skull. That’s where you were buried, and that’s where the whole drama is going to unfold. A hundred and twenty-nine days later my head began — there’s a vibration, and when it reached the limit — what I thought was the limit, it exploded; and then when the whole thing settled, I am seated at an ordinary table. Before me is a table; on it an enormous head severed from the body. Leaning against the side of… |
531085 |
| 1971-07-19 [exact/certain/final] |
Imagination Plus Faith |
And it is all spelled out for us in Scripture, and as we go through this series, the nine that follow tonight, we will try to explain it, using the Scripture to support my experiences. It is clearly stated, but I must confess I did not see it. I did not know it. I knew nothing of the Promise, even though it is right there in the Bible, speaking of promises, until it happened right here in this City twelve years ago tomorrow, on the 20th of July, 1959. It happened right here in this City at that hotel called Sir Francis Drake. I had retired after a very pleasant meal with a friend of mine. I… |
544266 |
| 1971-07-20 [exact/certain/final] |
His Purpose |
I entertained the thought, not knowing anything of the human form . . I am not a doctor, so I knew nothing of what a cerebral hemorrhage would be, but I thought for a moment, “This must be it. It must be a massive cerebral stroke, and maybe this is my departure from this world.” That was the feeling I had . . the thing was so intense! But this is what happened: instead of being one who departed the world, I began to awake. At the moment, I thought I would awake as I had awakened for 50-odd years of my life. Now this was 1959, twelve years ago. |
542082 |
| 1971-11-22 [exact/probable/final] |
God's Purpose |
Paul is speaking of that birth, and before that birth took place in him, he was set apart. The same thing happened in my case. Before I experienced the birth from above on the 20th day of July in 1959, thirty years before, I was set apart and called into the Divine Council. And when my name was checked off in the register, I was taken into the presence of the Ancient of Days—God Himself. His infinite Love was standing as a person before me. Then He embraced me. Our bodies fused. And I know from experience that the form of God is a living form, a forming form. Anyone who is fused with it, that… |
549698 |
| 1971-11-22 [exact/probable/final] |
God's Purpose |
I was born from above and did not know it—or the birth from above took place on the 20th day of July of 1959, and this was the sixth day of December 1959—139 days later I discovered I didn’t know. Because I was born from above and thrilled beyond measure that it fulfilled scripture. The witnesses were there, the child wrapped in swaddling clothes—he was there, everything was there—and yet I didn’t know. In fact, I’m born from above, but I didn’t know—may I tell you, I didn’t know what part He played in the drama to this extent. And I didn’t know it was He who revealed me as God the Father.… |
549720 |
| 1971-07-20 [after/probable/bound] |
The Promise Fulfilled |
I was only in my 50’s when it happened, and still could have sired a child, but I had been coming through the tribulations for thousands of years. I reached the end of the journey, and the journey takes thousands of years . . by implication, six thousand years, if you read Scripture carefully. For Peter said when they asked him, “Where is the promise of his coming? For ever since the fathers fell asleep, all things have continued as they were from the beginning of the world.” And then Peter answered that these wonders will come, but they do not know that one day of the Lord is equal to one… |
528177 |
| 1971-07-20 [after/probable/bound] |
The Promise Fulfilled |
So, the Promise has already reached its climax, but it is taking place. If I could only get this idea over to the whole vast world that would listen! Think of a drama that is actually taking place written in the imperative passive mood . . a command to be done absolutely and continuously, without any reference to completeness or incompleteness. It is taking place. The curtain doesn’t come down on it. It is always taking place, with no reference whatsoever to its position in time, whether it be 1971 or the Year One, or the Year Three Thousand. It’s always taking place. There is no reference to… |
528180 |
| 1971-07-20 [after/probable/bound] |
The Promise Fulfilled |
No, Sir. We are warned in Scripture, it is not by good works; it’s by faith. As we are told in Galatians, the 3rd chapter: “Oh foolish Galatians! Who has bewitched you, before whose eyes Jesus Christ was publicly portrayed as crucified? Let me ask you only this: Did you receive the Spirit by works of the law, or by hearing with faith? Are you so foolish? Having begun with the Spirit, are you now ending with the flesh?” So, they turned to the physical Jesus, and it was portrayed as you go to a play. I can go to a play tonight, and the same actor who is killed on the stage tonight . . a lot of… |
528203 |
| 1972 [exact/probable/final] |
God's Son |
And I know from my own experience that the Holy of Holies is right here, and God sleeps in it, and when God awakes without the help of anyone, he doesn’t need anyone’s help, God emerges from the Holy of Holies, which is called the Holy Sepulcher. And when you awake within that Holy Sepulcher, it is empty, may I tell you. You are the only presence in it, and you come out by your innate wisdom as to what to do and you push yourself out of it. You push and something gives and you come out. |
550717 |
| 1972 [exact/certain/preferred] |
David Christ |
It begins with resurrection. The night that you are awakened within yourself, that’s the resurrection. You awake within your own skull, and your skull is the holy sepulcher. And you awake — not another — and you see no one but yourself. You awake. Well, you say, “Who’s awakening?” Well, I am. Well, that’s God. That’s his name, forever and forever. That’s the being that awakes. But you haven’t lost your identity — no, it’s the same I-amness. I’m aware that I am the man that I was, the man that I was just a moment before. But now I awake in a way I have never been awake before. Something… |
556037 |
| 1972 [exact/certain/preferred] |
David Christ |
But now we are father, but we do not know it yet. It takes the son to reveal the father, and the child did not reveal it. I didn’t feel any different. I knew it was all part of scripture, but I did not feel different. There was no change in consciousness. I saw the infant, I held him, and here is this wonderful child in my arm, and I called him sweetheart. But I did not, after I wrote the story down and mailed it to my wife — I still did not have a change in consciousness. But one hundred thirty-nine days later, when the head exploded and David stood before me, a radical change within me —… |
556038 |
| 1972 [exact/probable/final] |
Immortal Man |
Listen to these words. In the King James Version, and Moffatt’s Version, and others that I have at home, it’s correctly translated. The Revised Standard Version, the New English Version have added a word that confuses the entirety. This is now the 8th chapter, the 11th verse of Romans: “If the spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead dwells in us, he will also raise Christ.” Two entirely different ones. But if you say “also raise Jesus Christ,” you’re going to confuse the entire thing. So the King James Version leaves off the word Jesus when it comes to the second raising, which is Christ… |
553769 |
| 1972 [circa/possible/preferred/estimated] |
False Gods |
And you and I are one. One in the sense we are the same father, and we have the same son, and therefore there’s only God and his son, and that’s the story of scripture. So it is in us as persons that God the father reveals himself, and when he reveals himself he reveals himself as the one in whom he awakes. But not a thing can be seen of him until the son appears. Then the son appears and reveals that one in whom he awoke 139 days prior to this moment as God the father. He still didn’t know it between his awakening and the birth of the child, which was a sign of his awakening and his birth… |
550241 |
| 1972 [exact/probable/final] |
God's Son |
It took me 1,260 days or you can say three-and-a-half months, or three-and-a-half years, pardon me, or forty-two months. These things are all in Scripture. Forty-two months, three- and-a-half years, or “time, times, and half a time,” or 1,260 days. It takes exactly 1,260 days. From the 20th day of July of 1959 to the first day of January 1963, comes to 1,260 days. And that was the interval in which the whole thing happened. Our visions came after that but they are not considered the mark. These are the marks that took 1,260 days. |
550752 |
| 1972-03-03 [exact/certain/final] |
Divine Vision |
I am not theorizing it; I have experienced it. And so, I’m telling you that it is David, and when it actually takes place in your world, who then is Mary? Did you not give birth to the Christ Child? I know I did. I held the child in my arms, and looked into his face and said, “How is my sweetheart?” And that heavenly smile broke upon its face. And then the whole thing dissolved. And then a few months later here comes the evidence; here is David, the one who said, “I am the son of thy handmaid.” Well, did he not come forth? Was it not pronounced by my brothers who were present, “It is Neville… |
526245 |
| 1972-03-06 [exact/certain/final] |
John the Crown of Scripture |
There is another word with a subtle double meaning. And the word is translated wind or it could be spirit. He said, “As the wind blows where it will, and you hear the sound of it, but you cannot tell whence it comes or whither it goes, and so it is with everyone who is born of the spirit.” Nicodemus cannot understand that. And yet it is from actual experience a wind and it is the spirit. When it happens to you, you hear the wind. It is an unearthly wind, fantastic wind, you’ll think it is a storm, a frightful hurricane, if you’ve ever gone through one. I’ve gone through many at sea and maybe… |
526674 |
| 1972-03-06 [exact/certain/final] |
John the Crown of Scripture |
So, I tell you from my own personal experience this is what is going to happen to you. It’s going to come suddenly, without warning. You’ll go to bed, maybe this night, as you did last night, and suddenly without any warning, you would feel a vibration that you will interpret as the end of your earthly days because you’ll feel, how can I really endure this? How can I possibly remain in this world? This means death, it’s like, I have never had any stroke that I know of, but having seen people who are crippled because of a stroke, and there was a cerebral hemorrhage, you think, well this must… |
526683 |
| 1972-03-06 [exact/certain/final] |
John the Crown of Scripture |
Then comes the next gift, and that’s when now he gives that graceful gift of his Son. “And God so loved the world, he gave his only begotten son.” That’s what will happen to you 139 days after this first experience. Well, the first thing that happens is you’re awake. Awakening in Scripture is the same as rising, the same as resurrection, the same word. To awake is to rise, to resurrect. You awake within your own skull and you stand up, you are resurrected. Therefore, you must have been dead or you are in a tomb. Then comes the evidence of a birth, following that. So, there are two sides of… |
526687 |
| 1972-03-06 [exact/certain/final] |
John the Crown of Scripture |
Resurrection begins the drama and the same night is the birth of you out of your own skull. Then 139 days later comes your wonderful discovery of who you are. So, John puts it in the most marvelous way, in the 18th verse of the very first chapter. The first 18 verses are the prologue, then comes the narrative, and then comes the epilogue. But here in the 18th, the very last verse of the prologue, for it is stating the entire picture. No one has ever seen God but the only begotten son who is dearest to his heart, he has made him known. That’s the gift of his Son when David appears. He makes… |
526688 |
| 1972-03-17 [exact/certain/final] |
Ends Ultimate and Temporary |
So, we are told, and I acted, and it came to pass. I acted and it came to pass. And so, I didn’t see a being on the outside calling himself God. I awoke within my skull and found it to be a sepulcher. It was I who awoke, it was I who came out. It was I who found a little child wrapped in swaddling clothes. It was I who saw the three witnesses, bearing witness to the event that I had just experienced. It was I who heard the wind and the wind was like some storm. It was I who saw David, who revealed to me that I am his Father and he is my Son. It was I whose body was split in two from top to… |
526310 |
| 1972-03-31 [exact/certain/final] |
Where and When Did It Happen |
And when completed, these things will happen. This that I spoke of earlier preceded the resurrection. The resurrection comes about and it’s not in some cemetery. It’s all within your own skull. When they came into the place, which is called the Skull, there they crucified him. In your skull. So go to bed a perfectly normal person, as you’ve done year after year, for as many years as you’ve lived, night after night, and something strange will happen while you’re asleep. You will feel a vibration that you’ve never known before. The strangest vibration. And you may interpret it as I interpreted… |
542284 |
| 1972-03-31 [exact/certain/final] |
Where and When Did It Happen |
And when I came out, all the symbolism that you find in Scripture, especially in the book of Luke, surrounded me: the infant wrapped in swaddling clothes, three men to witness the event, and the most fantastic wind. There was a storm and I interpreted the wind to be coming from the corner of the room, although I still felt it in my head. And one of the three who were present, he felt it and he was the most disturbed of the three. They all felt the wind. He went off to investigate the wind and looking down he saw the child, the infant wrapped in swaddling clothes, and he picked it up. And he… |
542285 |
| 1972-04 [circa/probable/preferred] |
Acts of God |
He does not put it in a chronological manner. No one does in scripture. I think I have given you a far greater chronological picture than anyone I have ever seen in print. I have told you exactly how it happened to me and the spaces in between from the moment of the awakening within me which is resurrection and the birth coming the same night 139 days later for the discovery of the son who reveals me as father. Then 123 days after that for the splitting of the curtain of the temple and I am the temple for my whole body was split and then another 998 day not no two years beyond that bringing… |
557423 |
| 1972-05-28 [exact/certain/final] |
Feel Chosen |
The beginning is when that head of yours vibrates, so you think this is the end, and it’s only then the beginning. When your head so vibrates that you think this is it, meaning to yourself, never having experienced anything comparable to this, that this is the end of what the world would call, now, you’re dying. Far from dying, the Lord shook the head. He vibrated the head. And that vibration woke you. Who did he wake? If you would be asked, who heard it? And who actually was wakened when he heard it and felt it? You would answer, I. I am wakened. And who found himself within the tomb and… |
526419 |
| No date on record |
Nevilles Awakening Birthday At Sir Francis Drake Hotel San Francisco July 20 |
Neville had his awakening experience or what he referred to as his “birthday” at the Sir Francis Drake Hotel in San Francisco on July 20, 1959. The Sir Francis Drake Hotel is a historic 416-room hotel, opened in 1928, in San Francisco, California. It is located at the corner of Sutter and Powell Streets adjacent to Union Square. The Sir Francis Drake Hotel was named after the English explorer who, in 1579, narrowly missed discovering San Francisco Bay and instead sailed the Golden Hind into Drakes Bay 28 miles north. At the time described as “The last word in hotels” for innovations and… |
114965 |
| No date on record |
Neville Goddard Research What Is The Divine Society |
“In understanding Neville’s life and work, it is important to realize that his thought significantly broadened after 1959, a year that opened him to a series of mystical awakenings. This cycle of revelation had actually begun years earlier, he does not pinpoint exactly when, when he reported being “ ,” and then returned to earth “tormented by my limitations of understanding. These limitations began to lift in July 1959 when the teacher underwent a mystical rebirth, or resurrection, from within the womb of his own skull. “Many years ago, I was taken in spirit into a Divine Society, a… |
106695 |
| No date on record |
Nevilles Awakening Birthday At Sir Francis Drake Hotel San Francisco July 20 |
“The Secret of Imagining” (1970) Today is the eleventh year since it happened to me right here in this city, right across the way at the hotel with the star at the top of the roof, the Sir Francis Drake, on the 20th day of July 1959. It was then that I, at 4:00 in the morning, felt within my head the most intense vibration, and I thought, this is a brain hemorrhage, and this is it. I knew nothing of the human form, and I thought I cannot possible survive what I am feeling; so this must be what they call a massive brain hemorrhage.
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114969 |
| No date on record |
Nevilles Awakening Birthday At Sir Francis Drake Hotel San Francisco July 20 |
So eleven years ago on the 20th day of July, back in 1959 here in this city, that drama took place within me. So it is my birthday today in a spiritual sense. The little body that now stands before you, that came in the year 1905.
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114976 |
| No date on record |
Miracle Imagination Margaret Ruth Broome |
I am at a loss for dates here, but I do know that during the early years of the 1950’s Neville had his own television program. He made two phonograph records during those years which are now available on cassette tape. He also debated with teams of ministers, priests and rabbis on special television programs. Neville taught the law of consciousness in Los Angeles at the Fox Wilshire Theater on Sunday mornings to crowds so large the people were standing outside in throngs to hear his words. He also spent several weeks each year in San Francisco. It was in San Francisco, on July 20, 1959… |
96842 |
| No date on record |
The Promise's Fulfillment in You |
And when the dream is over, we aren’t two. We are one. No longer will he simply treat me as something on the outside, an emanation of His. No more the emanation, He cleaves to me and we become one being. So when a man leaves this world, his father, his mother, and cleaves to his wife, and this is the wife, the emanation of God. Yet, though His emanation, it’s his wife until the dream is over. When the sleep is over, we aren’t two. We’re one. And I know that when I awoke within me, I wondered, “How did I get here? Who put me here?” For this is a tomb. This is a sepulcher and only one who… |
540769 |
| No date on record |
Margaret Ruth Broome Neville Goddard The Man Who Knew He Was God |
I am at a loss for dates here, but I do know that during the early years of the 1950’s Neville had his own television program. He made two phonograph records during those years which are now available on cassette tape. He also debated with teams of ministers, priests and rabbis on special television programs. Neville taught the law of consciousness in Los Angeles at the Fox Wilshire Theater on Sunday mornings to crowds so large the people were standing outside in throngs to hear his words. He also spent several weeks each year in San Francisco. It was in San Francisco, on July 20, 1959… |
141380 |
| No date on record |
I AM He |
So if you really believe in God, then we come from that original state where he speaks seemingly from without to which means when I hear him not as another I myself experience all these things so I can say to anyone what I did is I walked within my own skull there wasn’t another who walked I came out of my own skull there wasn’t another who came out so I was born from above as told in scripture I arose from the grave or the grave was my child that was a separator with I who found the essence of all the things that I’ve ever done in this world and the essence put together and personified was a… |
556823 |
| No date on record |
The Promise's Fulfillment in You |
And, here, all the symbolism of Scripture is unfolding before him. And he is the central character in the entire drama. They’re talking about him. They aren’t talking about Jesus. They’re talking about you. You are individualized and you tend forever and forever toward ever greater individualization. They didn’t call me by any other name. They didn’t call me God. Didn’t call me Lord, didn’t call me Jesus. They spoke of me as Neville. It’s Neville’s baby. I was aware of being “I.” No loss of identity whatsoever. But then when David comes, here is Neville. In this century I was born, the year… |
540780 |
| No date on record |
The Finances Of Neville Goddard What He Charged For Lectures And Why He Never Charged For Private Interviews |
Dec 25 article confirms series has run 4 months The 1959 Awakening: An Open Meeting for a Thousand This source is historically significant because it connects his “Birth from Above” to a meeting where he did not charge a fee, despite the prestige of the venue. Note though that this occurred on July 20, 1959, over three months his father’s death on October 31, 1959, which led to his large inheritance. Shows a lot of “free” spiritual work while he was still living primarily on his own professional earnings and initial dividends, prior to the major family windfall. “And you go to sleep as I… |
97459 |
| No date on record |
Who Is Jesus Christ |
It is coming. Well, you’re told in Scripture: “Gird up the loins of your mind, hope to the end for the grace that is coming to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ.” Set it early, that all your hope be upon that; may it happen now — but you started by believing in him whom he sent. When they say, “What must we do, that we might do the work of God?” — to believe in him — will that be a sin? I am telling you: if I get off this platform and start to discuss politics, you and I can discuss all kinds of nonsense — that’s not what he sent me to tell. I can be diverted; they’re all human. But when… |
556212 |
| No date on record |
Goddards Homes West Hollywood New York |
From “Gift Bestowed By God” (1971) Victoria Goddard – Citizen-News Hollywood California West Hollywood. Victoria Goddard daughter of Mr. and Mrs. Neville L. Goddard of 1025 Carol Dr. has been named to the dean’s list at Russell Sage College Troy, N.Y. Miss Goddard a senior majoring in English is vice president of her class.
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119668 |
| No date on record |
Freedom Barry Neville Goddard |
And it’s a never ending Self disclosure, so not having been there on that scene where Neville made that sudden discovery that he was instantly more than this and dropped that. What he did, I could not conjecture. I dare not say, because all of his experiences recorded in vision were things that were beyond anything I’ve ever experienced. Therefore, I have always said that those experiences… where he would put on the margins of his Bible the experiences like being born from Above with 7-16-59. Anything that was Scriptural, when he experienced it individually, he would make that notation in… |
97366 |